invigilation

i've been doing invigilation for the past week. i think this is highly suitable for ppl who like to pace and space. all u need to do is to walk and forth the rows, stare at the kids and get lost in your own thoughts till its time to collect their papers. its so darn boring.


well, actually i do like the spacing part. its how i function as a person. i dun understand those who needs zero personal space. like as if u'll cease to exist if ur on ur own [physically and metally] for just a tiny minute. for me its like the opposite. i need those times to feel alive sometimes. and yes, i do need to interaction w ppl and have company; im not an autist. but not an overdose of it. it makes me breathless. and if u think tt im weird. im not. its just who i am and what i do.


We should all learn how to move on; you'll be surprised at what can happen.

lousy behaviour

i knew she was lying. it was the 0.1 sec of hesitation and that slight quiver in her voice.

got meh? u sure not? ... maybe i was talking to myself.

that was such a bad lie. it was like she's pleading insanity to get away w her actions. [actually come to think abt it, most ppl charged w first degree murders to tt. haha.] ah well, not like its really a v big thing. just that it reflects quite a bit abt her. is it so hard to just admit your mistake and apologise graciously?

maybe if its me, i cant do it too.


sigh. i still haven get any news from ntu or nus yet. looks like i might just spend the next few years overseas.

nice.

then my mother and i are nearly alone in the courtroom. i lean forward to kiss her on the cheek. 'you did really great up there, ' i tell her, because i don't know how to say what i really want to: that the people you love can surprise you everyday. that maybe who we are isn't so much about what we do, but rather what we're capable of when we least expect it.

okay. i spent my whole labour day reading and eating away. its really quite an ideal thing to do. except when your mum ans sis are slogging away, making you feel guilty.
anyway, bit above is from the book that i finished reading today. its my sister's keeper, by jodi picoult. its a beautiful book. the emotions and thoughts going through the characters' mind are so vivid that it feels almost like im going through their dilemma. what i say here cant do justice to that book. u gotta read it and feel it for yourself. (=


and i can totally relate to the part where anna wants to be kate's sister all her life.