choice

get busy living, or get busy dying.

the choice is yours. and yours only.

it started when we were younger and u were mine

time kinda flies this week; its gonna be friday again tmr. i'll be going to a flea market out of town on sunday just to look around albeit i have an upcoming assesment on monday. hur. please don't nag me. i really need to get outta leeds, i haven't really travelled anywhere since i got here. besides, i have assessments like every week. like next next monday, im gonna have my final assessment which contributes to 40% of my overall module mark. yes, im gonna mug my ass off for that assessment.

oh! i finally got my long awaited parcel with my seafood inside.


they're dried and tiny though........

go ahead and laugh. but when you're abroad on your own, anything goes. esp when it tastes like home and is not bland.

im sure u guys know where this originated from. my mum had been nagging at me all week to check with the site office if her precious "dye" food has arrived. so here u go mummy. its right beside me now. and im gonna have some of it tonight. =D

one more thing, i had a haircut cum mini makeover yesterday, courtesy of Sherrie. i've got quite mixed reactions to my new hairstyle. so i'll let you decide for yourself...


20 mins before my haircut


TADA!



miss pseudo-cleopatra

haha. i just wanted a change. anyway, fringes grow real quickly. and i think its quite nice. hohoh.

THANKS SHERRIE! :)

as for my "makeover", Sherrie just picked up my makeup and painted my face. haha. then, she suggested that i change into something nicer and take pictures. basically, we spent almost the entire afternoon being vain. i took quite a lot of pictures which im not gonna post em here. haha. im not narcissistic or anything. =D well, okay. maybe just one la. cant waste the afternoon's effort right?


(:

i miss my phone. the pictures' quality suck.

ah well, i have to finish up my powerpoint on plagiarism and submit it by today. =/
ciao!

=/

its been a pretty hectic week. from school to shopping. suddenly its sunday again, and the routine is starting all over again. im having a bit of pre-monday blues. just that this one that im feeling now is slightly different; it has a dash of homesickness. nothing that i cant handle. just cant help but to miss home. from the luxury of having real soup to the random phone calls to/from friends. its just so faraway now.

its gonna be awhile before i get back to those things again. and i wonder if thye're gonna change in my absence. like morphing into something else that i cant recognise..

okay, enough lamenting. i have to be brave. i chose this path. and im gonna stick to it and make the best out of the stint, like how my bro-in-law put it. ((:

mugged.

if u dont already know,

I WAS MUGGED YTD!

):

i was on my way to meet my cousin for dinner at a small restaurant nearby. den 3 guys materialised from behind, snatched my hangbag and took off to the dark residential area. it was only half past eight can. =/

so i lost my favourite Gap hangbag, my motorola V3i, my favourite Guess wallet and my keys to my hostel in that split second. SIGH. inside my wallet i have my student ID, NRIC [yes, i know i shouldn have brought it along], my new bank card and some other stuff. some things can be replaced. but some cant be. ):

on the other hand, i still have my iPod with me. cos i put it into my jacket pocket instead of my bag. thats like the most expensive thing i have w me tt time. plus, i wasnt physically hurt. just shocked and truamatised. :(

this totally sucks. i'll have to bug the accommodation office for new keys, bank for new card and police for the official statement to claim my insurance. but i have to wait till monday cos they dont work on weekends. =/

but well, i wanna say a big THANK YOU to people who have shown concern and support to me. ((: it really made a difference.

the body

The most important things are the hardest things to say. They are the things you get ashamed of, because words diminish them - words shrink things that seemed limitless when they were in your head to no more than living size when they're brought out. But it's more than that, isn't it? The most important things lie too close to wherever your secret heart is buried, like landmarks to a treasure your enemies would love to steal away. And you may make revelations that cost you dearly only to have people look at you in a funny way, not understanding what you've said at all, or why you thought it was so important that you almost cried while you were saying it. That's the worst I think. When the secret stays locked within not for the want of a teller but for the want of an understanding ear.

in case you're wondering, i've been reading Stephen King's The Shawshank Redemption. i'll never ever write something like that. its so simple yet so close to heart.

time for my afternoon lecture.

peel me a grape

its been a pretty hectic week. lesson started proper and there are some order restored! ((: not that i love routines. its just feeling lost in an unfamiliar place kinda sucks. what we're doing during lectures is more or less a recap of A level stuff. which isnt too bad - i've given most of the things back to miss mani already. =X so much for mugging for A's. or mayb thats the reason behind my C for bio. hmm, let's not go into that. no one likes to read about lamentations right?

anyway, i love biology, esp human physiology. i'm so glad that i didnt settle for any random course back in Singapore. i might need time and energy to adapt to Leeds, selfishly burn a big hole on my parents' pocket and leave all my loved ones behind. but i know that this is something that i want to do for life. tho i dun know what's gonna happen in the future.

OH! i went for a little retail therapy and grocery shopping today with Sherrie. i spent like 30 pounds. =X and i got...


my dream boots! i love the colour, material, heel, height, length and price. its perfect! [12 pounds]


green bag! [4 pounds]

and one week worth of fruits and meat. well, my new bag and boots are probably made in China. but who cares. they're nice and of quite good quality. muahaha. i love getting good buys!!

and... its great to have a nice shopping partner. ((:

well, so far everything's quite alright. hope this will continue for awhile longer before the novelty of living alone wears off and homesickness starts kicking in. =/

the cold dreary winter is looming....

my room

MY ROOM!


my bed.


my table. [oops is that my sports bra?]


my v tiny closet. =/


window. nice. thats like my favourite part of my room.


view outside my window.


free poster. =D


my FULL LENGTH mirror. hee.


im a little lazy to type. thus the pictures. :)) enjoy! school's starting tmr. wil update then. wish me luck!

induction week

its been a week since i've reached Leeds. i've been really busy.

the first thing that i did when i got over the jet-lag was to visit the city centre. my cousin actually took 3 days' worth of leave to bring me around the uni and the city centre. :) hoho. i dunno what i wld've done wo him showing me the place. i really need to get accustomed to walking alot. my hostel is 10 mins away from sch and 20 mins away from the city centre by foot. so theres really no point taking public transport when there is a traffic light every 50 meters and the bus frequency is like 10 mins.

then, it was the talks about my course, briefing about my lectures and IT facilities in sch. it was boring yet informative. but the induction week is more or less over now. and the real lectures and tutorials are kicking in next monday. hope it'll be better then the talks.

oh yes, and my uni registration. it was giving me quite a headache till this afternoon. thank goodness its been settled already. there was some miscommunication between my mum and i. i told her to transfer my tuition fees to the uni's barclay a/c straight. but she thought it my was a/c that i was talking about and sent extra 3000 pounds there. but now, eth's good. the sch got the money and will send back the extra money tranferred. so i dun have to chase the sch for my 3000 pounds.

i guess, this is part of settling down and really integrating into the Leeds community. i really do hope i can find a place for myself in this lovely city. i should really take some time off to take pics of this place and upload it. :)

okay, its 6:46pm now. time for dinner. =D

hello world.

HELLO HELLO.

i just reached Leeds!

the weather here is so nice. it has the kind of pleasant chilly feel which is a nice change from singapore. =D but my cousin warned me that today is actually one of the rare days where its hotter den usual. and in 2 months' time, i'll be missing the sunny Singapore.

anyway, im currently at my cousin's place. just woke up from a short nap, considering how much sleep/time i lost ytd during the flight. its like 14 freaking hours. =/ by the way, if you'r wondering what's the time difference, Leeds is 7 hours behind Singapore. for now. it'll be 8 when its winter. anyone knows why? do enlighten me. :)

oh, before i forget, i really gotta thank all my beloved friends who sent me off at the airport ytd. :)) it means so much to me. and for those who couldn make it. dun worry, i'll still love you guys. haha.

okay, i'll update more later. i really need my beauty sleep cos a headache is on its way.. :(

countdown.

6 days. =/

funny pink shoes.

went shopping with my mum a couple of days back at paragon. bought a pair of shoes from novo. hee. i think i really like weird stuff. i would've loved it more if its LIME GREEN tho.


:)

oh, i finally cleared up abt 60% of the mess on my table. i haven seen the table top in months. but now i can actually use my laptop on my table. great improvement huh? :)


hur. whatever happened to the sunny sun when i want to sun tan? =/

The Blower's Daughter

And so it is
Just like you said it would be
Life goes easy on me
Most of the time
And so it is
The shorter story
No love, no glory
No hero in her sky

I can't take my eyes off of you
I can't take my eyes off of you
I can't take my eyes off of you
I can't take my eyes off of you
I can't take my eyes off of you
I can't take my eyes...

And so it is
Just like you said it should be
We'll both forget the breeze
Most of the time
And so it is
The colder water
The blower's daughter
The pupil in denial

I can't take my eyes off of you
I can't take my eyes off of you
I can't take my eyes off of you
I can't take my eyes off of you
I can't take my eyes off of you
I can't take my eyes...

Did I say that I love you?
Did I say that I want to
Leave it all behind?

I can't take my mind off of you
I can't take my mind off of you...
I can't take my mind off of you
I can't take my mind off of you
I can't take my mind off of you
I can't take my mind...
My mind...my mind...
'Til I find somebody new

heard this today at Fish and Co, glasshouse.
now i cant take this song off my mind..

i want the luxury of feeling nostalgic back.

oh, who likes wine, smoked cheese, parma ham, pasta etc? :)

visa woes

Life has quite a funny way of making one busy.
just as i thought everything is settled for my departure for Leeds, i got a refusal for my visa application. reason being: insufficient evidence of funding. in short, they think im broke. my dad, being really typical of him, isn't really accommodating when it comes showing his bank statements. inconvenient, he said. but its really the same old trust issue that i don't really want to go into. its mouldy, pointless and completely exasperating. sometimes, i really wonder how what my dad is thinking about, and how my mum tolerated that shit for 2 decades.

in the end, something as trival as providing bank statements got really complicated and pissifying. its hard to believe how much, or rather, how little trust i get from my dad. its really insulting and degrading.

sigh. so after some scoldings, fights and unneccessary tears, i finally got what is needed. plus more than i bargained for; things that i don't really wanna know.

for now, i just hope that i don't have to delay my flight and miss orientation or even lessons. 'cause re-application takes 2-3 weeks. time's really running out.

the truth will set you free?
i guess its really a matter of perspective.

sleepless

pensive and apprehensive.

sigh. 25 days.

sickness

sigh. been down w a flu and bad sore throat for the past 2 days. this translates to more lazing and sleeping at home. haha. im such a pig. i just cant help it.

i'll be leaving in abt 4 weeks' time.. i have absolutely no idea how well i can adapt to the life at Leeds. hur. so many questions wo answers. made some friends at the pre-departure seminar. and they r just as apprehensive as i am. :(
pre-departure blues. =/

anyway, clubbing tmr. hope it'll be fun. =D

bored.

hur. this sucks. im like at home everyday.. my mum doesnt want me to work anymore cos i'll be going off soon. =( everyone's busy with sch and stuff now except for me. sigh. talking abt no life. =/

ah well, i just booked my air ticket last night. i'll be flying on the 14th of sept. i hope i wldn b reduced to holding clear plastic bags when i get on the plane. its quite scary wads happening. like all the terrorists' bombings and attempts to blow up innocent lives in uk. hurr. wad if i get blown up to bits.. ewww.

Well life has a funny way of sneaking up on you
When you think everything's okay and everything's going right
And life has a funny way of helping you out when
You think everything's gone wrong and everything blows up
In your face

ironic - alanis morissette

linger.

If you, if you could return
Dont let it burn, dont let it fade
Im sure Im not being rude
But its just your attitude
Its tearing me apart
Its ruining everything
And I swore, I swore I would be true
And honey so did you
So why were you holding her hand
Is that the way we stand
Were you lying all the time
Was it just a game to you

But Im in so deep
You know Im such a fool for you
You got me wrapped around your finger
Do you have to let it linger
Do you have to, do you have to
Do you have to let it linger

Oh, I thought the world of you
I thought nothing could go wrong
But I was wrong
I was wrong
If you, if you could get by
Trying not to lie
Things wouldnt be so confused
And I wouldnt feel so used
But you always really knew
I just wanna be with you

And Im in so deep
You know Im such a fool for you
You got me wrapped around your finger
Do you have to let it linger
Do you have to. do you have to
Do you have to let it linger

And Im in so deep
You know Im such a fool for you
You got me wrapped around your finger
Do you have to let it linger
Do you have to, do you have to
Do you have to let it linger

You know Im such a fool for you
You got me wrapped around your finger
Do you have to let it linger
Do you have to, do you have to
Do you have to let it linger


sigh.

new skin.

heh. im bored. hence the new blogskin.

the pic is taken by my chinese teacher. [he's teaching one of the modules for my part-time chinese course.] he's really proud of it. kept showing us during lesson. he's so keen on sharing his masterpiece that i decided to use it as my blogskin. his enthusiasm is rather contagious. haha. imagine a 60 yr old grandpa showing off his beloved picture. its kinda funny.

some ppl r just plain rude and stuck up. i cant stand it. cant u call back later, bitch.

-breathes-

right. i shld read my accommodation contract, pick up my passport photos and do my cl assi. hur, my second sis went off for a blue sky holiday on some island.
i want to go too.

slackarian.

hur. i've been at home packing my room. cos i'll be going away for quite a substantial period of time. cant leave my mess at home collecting dust right? but all my cupboards/selves/drawers/table are so bursting w things that i cant possibly clear eth at one shot. =/ so i started with my dressing area, then my selves. im planning to start w my table soon. its like overflowing w ALL my stuff. yes, im not the neatest person ard. but my mess is organised mess okay. [ahaha, oxymoron] i know exactly where all my things are, well almost.


during the midst of clearing up old books/files/letters etc is actually quite enjoyable. alot of fond memories came back to me. esp when I was looking thru' letters. its so funny, like taking a ride back in time. when I was 17, 15, 12, 10, 5 wadeva. i really saw how much i've grown, or how childish i was. of cos there are some v unglam pics that i dun really wan ppl to see now [cos of its laughter-inducing factor]. hahah. i was really really fat then. like fat fat. not how girls complain abt their non-existence kind of fat. lol.


these memories will always be part of me. like the friends i've made, the things we did together, for each other will always stay w me. cos without em, i am nothing but an empty shell [w fats and long bones only].


ah, i wonder how it would be like if i go thru' my stuff again 10 years later.