countdown.

6 days. =/

funny pink shoes.

went shopping with my mum a couple of days back at paragon. bought a pair of shoes from novo. hee. i think i really like weird stuff. i would've loved it more if its LIME GREEN tho.


:)

oh, i finally cleared up abt 60% of the mess on my table. i haven seen the table top in months. but now i can actually use my laptop on my table. great improvement huh? :)


hur. whatever happened to the sunny sun when i want to sun tan? =/

The Blower's Daughter

And so it is
Just like you said it would be
Life goes easy on me
Most of the time
And so it is
The shorter story
No love, no glory
No hero in her sky

I can't take my eyes off of you
I can't take my eyes off of you
I can't take my eyes off of you
I can't take my eyes off of you
I can't take my eyes off of you
I can't take my eyes...

And so it is
Just like you said it should be
We'll both forget the breeze
Most of the time
And so it is
The colder water
The blower's daughter
The pupil in denial

I can't take my eyes off of you
I can't take my eyes off of you
I can't take my eyes off of you
I can't take my eyes off of you
I can't take my eyes off of you
I can't take my eyes...

Did I say that I love you?
Did I say that I want to
Leave it all behind?

I can't take my mind off of you
I can't take my mind off of you...
I can't take my mind off of you
I can't take my mind off of you
I can't take my mind off of you
I can't take my mind...
My mind...my mind...
'Til I find somebody new

heard this today at Fish and Co, glasshouse.
now i cant take this song off my mind..

i want the luxury of feeling nostalgic back.

oh, who likes wine, smoked cheese, parma ham, pasta etc? :)

visa woes

Life has quite a funny way of making one busy.
just as i thought everything is settled for my departure for Leeds, i got a refusal for my visa application. reason being: insufficient evidence of funding. in short, they think im broke. my dad, being really typical of him, isn't really accommodating when it comes showing his bank statements. inconvenient, he said. but its really the same old trust issue that i don't really want to go into. its mouldy, pointless and completely exasperating. sometimes, i really wonder how what my dad is thinking about, and how my mum tolerated that shit for 2 decades.

in the end, something as trival as providing bank statements got really complicated and pissifying. its hard to believe how much, or rather, how little trust i get from my dad. its really insulting and degrading.

sigh. so after some scoldings, fights and unneccessary tears, i finally got what is needed. plus more than i bargained for; things that i don't really wanna know.

for now, i just hope that i don't have to delay my flight and miss orientation or even lessons. 'cause re-application takes 2-3 weeks. time's really running out.

the truth will set you free?
i guess its really a matter of perspective.

sleepless

pensive and apprehensive.

sigh. 25 days.

sickness

sigh. been down w a flu and bad sore throat for the past 2 days. this translates to more lazing and sleeping at home. haha. im such a pig. i just cant help it.

i'll be leaving in abt 4 weeks' time.. i have absolutely no idea how well i can adapt to the life at Leeds. hur. so many questions wo answers. made some friends at the pre-departure seminar. and they r just as apprehensive as i am. :(
pre-departure blues. =/

anyway, clubbing tmr. hope it'll be fun. =D

bored.

hur. this sucks. im like at home everyday.. my mum doesnt want me to work anymore cos i'll be going off soon. =( everyone's busy with sch and stuff now except for me. sigh. talking abt no life. =/

ah well, i just booked my air ticket last night. i'll be flying on the 14th of sept. i hope i wldn b reduced to holding clear plastic bags when i get on the plane. its quite scary wads happening. like all the terrorists' bombings and attempts to blow up innocent lives in uk. hurr. wad if i get blown up to bits.. ewww.

Well life has a funny way of sneaking up on you
When you think everything's okay and everything's going right
And life has a funny way of helping you out when
You think everything's gone wrong and everything blows up
In your face

ironic - alanis morissette

linger.

If you, if you could return
Dont let it burn, dont let it fade
Im sure Im not being rude
But its just your attitude
Its tearing me apart
Its ruining everything
And I swore, I swore I would be true
And honey so did you
So why were you holding her hand
Is that the way we stand
Were you lying all the time
Was it just a game to you

But Im in so deep
You know Im such a fool for you
You got me wrapped around your finger
Do you have to let it linger
Do you have to, do you have to
Do you have to let it linger

Oh, I thought the world of you
I thought nothing could go wrong
But I was wrong
I was wrong
If you, if you could get by
Trying not to lie
Things wouldnt be so confused
And I wouldnt feel so used
But you always really knew
I just wanna be with you

And Im in so deep
You know Im such a fool for you
You got me wrapped around your finger
Do you have to let it linger
Do you have to. do you have to
Do you have to let it linger

And Im in so deep
You know Im such a fool for you
You got me wrapped around your finger
Do you have to let it linger
Do you have to, do you have to
Do you have to let it linger

You know Im such a fool for you
You got me wrapped around your finger
Do you have to let it linger
Do you have to, do you have to
Do you have to let it linger


sigh.

new skin.

heh. im bored. hence the new blogskin.

the pic is taken by my chinese teacher. [he's teaching one of the modules for my part-time chinese course.] he's really proud of it. kept showing us during lesson. he's so keen on sharing his masterpiece that i decided to use it as my blogskin. his enthusiasm is rather contagious. haha. imagine a 60 yr old grandpa showing off his beloved picture. its kinda funny.

some ppl r just plain rude and stuck up. i cant stand it. cant u call back later, bitch.

-breathes-

right. i shld read my accommodation contract, pick up my passport photos and do my cl assi. hur, my second sis went off for a blue sky holiday on some island.
i want to go too.

slackarian.

hur. i've been at home packing my room. cos i'll be going away for quite a substantial period of time. cant leave my mess at home collecting dust right? but all my cupboards/selves/drawers/table are so bursting w things that i cant possibly clear eth at one shot. =/ so i started with my dressing area, then my selves. im planning to start w my table soon. its like overflowing w ALL my stuff. yes, im not the neatest person ard. but my mess is organised mess okay. [ahaha, oxymoron] i know exactly where all my things are, well almost.


during the midst of clearing up old books/files/letters etc is actually quite enjoyable. alot of fond memories came back to me. esp when I was looking thru' letters. its so funny, like taking a ride back in time. when I was 17, 15, 12, 10, 5 wadeva. i really saw how much i've grown, or how childish i was. of cos there are some v unglam pics that i dun really wan ppl to see now [cos of its laughter-inducing factor]. hahah. i was really really fat then. like fat fat. not how girls complain abt their non-existence kind of fat. lol.


these memories will always be part of me. like the friends i've made, the things we did together, for each other will always stay w me. cos without em, i am nothing but an empty shell [w fats and long bones only].


ah, i wonder how it would be like if i go thru' my stuff again 10 years later.

blessed

ytd, i went to town w tiff to buy PILLOWS! ahaha. and the auntie selling pillows at taka actually reccommended a 66 bucks pillow. -_-" hur. do i look like i'll spend waste 66 bucks on a pillow? mayb i look like such a pig that she thinks that i'll buy it. lol. anyway, after tiff decided which pillow to buy, we ran into alicia! haa. and we stood there for like half an hr just to chat and decide when to meet up. but we had to leave cos we'r running late and cia has to work.


i spent abt 100 bucks at true colours. =/ shit. i think im getting tiffany-disease - spending too much. hope i get my pay soon. and the products from true colours had better work.


after that, i went to the pre-departure talk organised by British Council at Pan-Pacific Hotel. i was severely late. but the good thing is i've been reading useful websites on appying visa, booking air tickets and accommodation. so i didnt miss out much. anyway, i visited the U of Leeds booth set up by the singapore society at leeds uni. i ended up standing in front of the booth and chatted w the president of the society like we've known each other for a long time. haha. i suspect he's a caucasian-indian mix. tho he's not v good-looking, but i think he's really cute. -grins- muahahah. =X im really looking forward to e other pre-departure seminar by U of Leeds next sat. heeheee.


my dad got me a new phone for my belated bday pwes. hee. its the red motorola v3i. its so pretty! =D initially, i wanted the D&G limited edition v3i. but after much consideration, i decided to get the normal red one instead. cos UK isnt really the safest place on earth. i dun really want my phone stolen/getting mugged cos of a flashy phone. plus, its abt 200 bucks cheaper. like my younger sis said, i can get another decent phone w that amount of money.


oh, and i upgraded its meomory size to 1GB. muahahaha. so that next time when i travel ard europe, i wldn have to start deleting pics/video/music in my phone. heeheeheee. i actually promised my mum that i'll take pics/videos of myself on a daily basis and email em to her when im at leeds. talking abt narcissism. must learn from sean. hahah.


OOOH! my sis and bro-in-law got me a 30GB ipod!! =D its a pre-departure pwes from em. heehee. i feel so loved. hahaha. yay* fwaahhh. now my mp3 wldn be "puked" out by my MacBook.


aah, i feel so pampered and blessed. =D

im so loved.. .. =D

first of all i just wanna say

THANK YOU!!

to my dear friends who came [mayb i shld say sneaked?] to my house ytd for my bday surprise. hee. thank you for making me feel loved. =D
sorry i let u guys waited for such a longlong time. i really had absolutely NO idea tt u guys r coming. heee.
anyway, thanks again. love u all. -hugs-


ah, gtg. i have to work. =/ ugh.

toiletries

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just to make sure tt i remember the spelling of TOILETRIES so that somebody cant laugh at me again. well, at least when it comes to the spelling of TOILETRIES.
by the way, the 100 bucks on toiletries is FOR HALF A YEAR'S SUPPLY. cos my aunt told my mum who in turn told me that i shld stock up b4 i go Leeds. cos its cheaper here. and im actually trying to save money okay.

but i had to lug eth[6/7kg] home myself cos my mum's not free to fetch me home. i got like red marks all over my arm cos of my shampoo and stuff. i was so hoping tt on one will see me struggling. den, i ran into one of my mum's ex-student. he was nice enough to help me carry half my load on tt loooong looong stretch of road. i think he is quite cute. and he is studying in AJ yr 2. my dear AJ juniors. do look out for him. =X

but he just had to tell me tt he saw me struggling from far. how unglam.



i could tell from the minute i woke tt its gonna be a lonely lonely lonely lonely daaayy.

dilemma

every ship needs a lighthouse once in awhile. even if its a mirage.
but u ask yourself, 'why would u rather be deceived?'

sigh.

hong kong trip

ah, its been a really long time since i blogged. so for those who haven got the news that im going away in sept to Leeds. yup, i'll be leaving in early sept to study biomedical science at University of Leeds.
i guess this isnt too surprising. cos i didnt exactly do well. and the course that i wanna do (biomed) is quite popular in singapore.
actually, im quite excited abt going Leeds. but apprehensive at the same time. cos u can read all abt leeds. but the actual experience is different for everyone. i can only prepare as much as possible and wait for sept.

the hong kong/guangzhou trip was really good! haha. i spent 5 days in hk w my mum and younger sis. then, 2 days in guangzhou w my dad. anyway, this trip is like a mega shopping trip. heh. i spent almost all my money at Lion Rock Road, Kowloon. its one whole street that sells clothes. really cheap clothes. stuff from A&F, country road, next, hollister, gap, american eagle, DKNY etc etc. they'r like ALL on a 50-90% discount!!! muahaha. plus, THEY ARE NOT COUNTERFEITS!!! they are goods that failed the quality check by the various brands. so, that place is like a F.O.S times 100000 or sth (and of cos, its cheaper). so for those who want to visit HK, pls take some time off for that place. its really worth visit.

but before u get too excited. they dun have a wide range of sizes. and most of the time they only have a few pieces for one design. and another thing that the service wouldn be as good as shopping center boutiques. also, chances are, u will have to really dig for the clothes. haha. its quite a different shopping experience altogether. i dunno if u'll like it. but i definitely love the feeling of getting good buys. =D

alrighty, here's some pics i took during the trip. enjoy.


on the plane.


handle on train.


my little sis. how unglam. haha. but the food's really tasty. :)


this is the tea house menu. it says tt some dumpling costs HK$22.


train to hongkong disneyland. really cute handles.


little sis, mum, me, dad. on train the disneyland.


train to disneyland. nice windows.


disneyland map and entrance tix


me, sis. entrance of disneyland.


miniature house. its very very cute.


the ice cream cart.


shit. forgot e name.


sis, me. (yes, i know that i grew fat. dun remaind me. hur.)


heh. my manicured fingers. it costs me only 20 rmb. v pretty right?


stuff that i bought during the trip. its uploaded upon the request of yvonne. haha. doubt that u can see eth tho.

hmmm, this is one LONG entry (comparatively). oh. before i go off, just wanna say: I GOT A MACBOOK!!! hee. its like a dream come true.
ha ha ha. cheerios.

MacBook

hee. a MacBook asks nicely. =D
ahahaa.
yes, im getting this. soon.


its beautiful.

invigilation

i've been doing invigilation for the past week. i think this is highly suitable for ppl who like to pace and space. all u need to do is to walk and forth the rows, stare at the kids and get lost in your own thoughts till its time to collect their papers. its so darn boring.


well, actually i do like the spacing part. its how i function as a person. i dun understand those who needs zero personal space. like as if u'll cease to exist if ur on ur own [physically and metally] for just a tiny minute. for me its like the opposite. i need those times to feel alive sometimes. and yes, i do need to interaction w ppl and have company; im not an autist. but not an overdose of it. it makes me breathless. and if u think tt im weird. im not. its just who i am and what i do.


We should all learn how to move on; you'll be surprised at what can happen.

lousy behaviour

i knew she was lying. it was the 0.1 sec of hesitation and that slight quiver in her voice.

got meh? u sure not? ... maybe i was talking to myself.

that was such a bad lie. it was like she's pleading insanity to get away w her actions. [actually come to think abt it, most ppl charged w first degree murders to tt. haha.] ah well, not like its really a v big thing. just that it reflects quite a bit abt her. is it so hard to just admit your mistake and apologise graciously?

maybe if its me, i cant do it too.


sigh. i still haven get any news from ntu or nus yet. looks like i might just spend the next few years overseas.

nice.

then my mother and i are nearly alone in the courtroom. i lean forward to kiss her on the cheek. 'you did really great up there, ' i tell her, because i don't know how to say what i really want to: that the people you love can surprise you everyday. that maybe who we are isn't so much about what we do, but rather what we're capable of when we least expect it.

okay. i spent my whole labour day reading and eating away. its really quite an ideal thing to do. except when your mum ans sis are slogging away, making you feel guilty.
anyway, bit above is from the book that i finished reading today. its my sister's keeper, by jodi picoult. its a beautiful book. the emotions and thoughts going through the characters' mind are so vivid that it feels almost like im going through their dilemma. what i say here cant do justice to that book. u gotta read it and feel it for yourself. (=


and i can totally relate to the part where anna wants to be kate's sister all her life.