she wants to be like the water

Every time after varsity volleyball training, I’ll feel an overwhelming sense of nostalgia. I miss playing volleyball in Singapore, with my old team mates. The unspoken understanding and silly jokes on/off court, the friendships forged over the years. They’re simply irreplaceable. Sometimes, I find myself in search for that intangible feeling i miss so much. But I know I can never ever turn back time to experience the feeling of fulfilment and satisfaction during/after competitions and trainings. It’ll always be part of me but, sadly, I can never come close to experiencing all these again. Just like how water in a stream can never be exactly the same as before - it keeps moving on, never looking back at anything. Maybe I should be glad just to have those fond memories. Maybe.

sigh.

Breathe - Michelle Branch

I've been driving for an hour
Just talking to the rain
You say I've been driving you crazy
and its keeping you away
So just give me one good reason
Tell me why I should stay
'Cause I dont wanna waste another moment
in saying things we never meant to say

And I Take it just a little bit
I, hold my breath and count to ten
I, I've been waiting for a chance to let you in

If I just breathe
Let it fill the space between
I'll know everything is alright
Breathe
Every little piece of me
You'll see
Everything is alright
If I just breathe

Well it's all so overrated
In not saying how you feel
So you end up watching chances fade
And wondering what's real

And I Give you just a little time
I, Wonder if you realize
I've been waiting till I see it in your eyes

If I just breathe
Let it fill the space between
I'll know everything is alright
Breathe,
Every little piece of me
You'll see
Everything is alright
If I just breathe
Breathe

So I whisper in the dark,
Hoping you hear me
Do you hear me?

If I just breathe
Let it fill the space between
I'll know everything is alright
Breathe,
Every little piece of me
You'll see
Everything is alright
Everything is alright if i just breathe... breathe

I've been driving for an hour
Just talking to the rain

HELLO LIZZIE LIZARD

say hi to Elizabeth Chia Yu-en! a new addition to my family on 26 Jan 2007 at 855am (sg time).

she's so loved by all of us. (:

Littlest Things - Lily Allen

Sometimes I find myself sittin' back and reminiscing
Especially when I have to watch other people kissin'
And I remember when you started callin' me your miss's
All the play fightin', all the flirtatious disses
I'd tell you sad stories about my childhood
I dont why I trusted you but I knew that I could
We'd spend the whole weekend lying in our own dirt
I was just so happy in your boxers and your t-shirt

[Chorus]
Dreams, Dreams
Of when we had just started things
Dreams of you and me
It seems, It seems
That I can't shake those memories
I wonder if you have the same dreams too.

The littlest things that take me there
I know it sounds lame but its so true
I know its not right, but it seems unfair
That the things are reminding me of you
Sometimes I wish we could just pretend
Even if for only one weekend
So come on, Tell me
Is this the end?

Drinkin' tea in bed
Watching DVD's
When I discovered all your dirty grotty magazines
You take me out shopping and all we'd buy is trainers
As if we ever needed anything to entertain us
the first time that you introduced me to your friends
and you could tell I was nervous, so you held my hand
when I was feeling down, you made that face you do
no one in the world that could replace you

[Chorus]
Dreams, Dreams
Of when we had just started things
Dreams of me and you
It seems, It seems
That I can't shake those memories
I wonder if you feel the same way too

The littlest things that take me there
I know it sounds lame but its so true
I know its not right, but it seems unfair
That the things remind me of you
Sometimes I wish we could just pretend
Even if for only one weekend
So come on, Tell me
Is this the end?

Prague trip

Prague is such a beautiful city. wish we had a day or two more to explore the place. i'll definitely go back there if i get a chance to. =D

i'll update more when i get hold of the pictures we took during the trip.

it's almost 4am now. i should get back to bed.



And just because you just don't feel like coming home
Don't mean that you'll never arrive.

feel like home

Feel like Home - Fort Minor

These days are dark and the nights are cold
People acting like they lost their soul
And everywhere I go I see another person like me
Trying to make it all feel like home

[Mike:]
Standing on the bridge in teh dark and I'm seeing my breath
Trying to make it home without freezing to death
And my grandfather's face is
stuck in my mind mind and how
Seeing him tonight's gonna be the last time I should've brought a jacket
Blowing in my hands like it's really gonna stop the chill
I buy a cup of coffee with a five dollar bill
thinking
Laying in that box people look so still
At times like these you start thinking
Your first breath in and the clock starts ticking
I'm not trying to bum anyone out
Not trying to be dramatic
just thinking out loud
I'm just trying to make some sense in my mind
Some defense from the cold that I'm feeling outside and for a minute
Escape with some rhythm and rhyme and
Get away from the grey
Just a bit at a time

[Ryu:]
Kinda funny how this world can treat you
Like a freak in a sideshow
a carnival creature
Climbing outta cans
I'm a diamond in the sand
But you cant tell the difference on a beach full of rhinestones
My life's like trying to swallow a pinecone
It's tough when you live fast
just to die slow
Talk to dial tones
my dreams are far-fetched
It seems
so I sleep underneath this park bench
I know it don't make sense
And I don't expect you to know what it's like
Smoke
drink
piss
sniffing everything in my sight
Push rocks in a pipe
Liftoff
I keep puffin 'til my lips turn white
And my chest gets tight
But who the fuck really cares
when you're
So far left behind that even death looks right
All I can do is hope for teh best and pray
That it gets a little better than yesterday

[Tak:]
Pardon me
I think I'm nect to url
Too many problems going on
that's why i left my girl
Packed my bags and traveled with a pen and a notepad
Pissed that i was broke and all the things that I dont have
But still
I try toi find a way to escape
From all teh hate planted in my head which lead to mistakes
But now I'm breaking the mold
see I was patient and calm
Many sleep in the rain
but I'm awake in the storm
Writing my life in a short film
The Rise and Fall
How I managed to scorch hills
and climb the walls
Pound pavement
aimless in the cold existence
Even thought thangs are changing
I'm going the distance
Overcoming the doubt that had controlled for so long
And put it all behind me
'cause life still goes on
Now I'm much stronger and know where I stand
While lost souls search over and over again

[Mike:]
These days are dark and the nights are cold
People acting like they lost their soul
And everybody's trying not to cry
trying to get by
And trying not to feel out of control
And if you look hard enough
Sometimes you'll find a place that might just remind you of home
But if it doesn't feel like home
You can do what I do
Just pretend you don't feel so alone

saying things that i cant quite put in words

i rememeber reading somewhere that we spend most of our lives pretending to be someone we can never be. i think there's some truth in it. cos it has something to do with the insecurities that we inevitably carry around, in large or small packages. its not so much about leaving a better impression in others. Rather, it's more like hiding behind a facade. tucking that inner self away, protected from the (intentional or unintentional) judgement of others and the disappointment when it is unraveled.

i guess we can never be as good as we'd like ourselves to be, can we?

quote

I may disagree with what you have to say, but I shall defend, to the death, your right to say it.
- Voltaire

i must say that i really agree with this little quote of the day i ripped off my sis and bro-in-law's blog. well, i guess it works vice versa too, right?

hurrrr, back to my ethics essay and exercise on plagiarism.

):

iPhone

iPhone

iWant.

):

suddenly i see

Suddenly I See - KT Tunstall

Her face is a map of the world
Is a map of the world
You can see she's a beautiful girl
She's a beautiful girl
And everything around her is a silver pool of light
The people who surround her feel the benefit of it
It makes you calm
She holds you captivated in her palm

Suddenly I see (Suddenly I see)
This is what I wanna be
Suddenly I see (Suddenly I see)
Why the hell it means so much to me

I feel like walking the world
Like walking the world
You can hear she's a beautiful girl
She's a beautiful girl
She fills up every corner like she's born in black and white
Makes you feel warmer when you're trying to remember
What you heard
She likes to leave you hanging on her word

Suddenly I see (Suddenly I see)
This is what I wanna be
Suddenly I see (Suddenly I see)
Why the hell it means so much to me

And she's taller than most
And she's looking at me
I can see her eyes looking from a page in a magazine
Oh she makes me feel like I could be a tower
A big strong tower
She got the power to be
The power to give
The power to see

Suddenly I see (Suddenly I see)
This is what I wanna be
Suddenly I see (Suddenly I see)
Why the hell it means so much to me

blessed.

i think i'm quite an eccentric person.

sometimes, i just lie on my bed at night imagining how billions of cells in my body functioning as a whole unit, complementing each other in synchrony. like how millions of minute neurons firing electrical signals to each other to inhibit or excite, creating resopnses in my muscles or just a random thought like this. it's amazing how the seemingly "dead" processes, such as diffusion of neurotransmitter down a concentration gradient across the synaptic cleft, come together to make you and i unique individuals. it's simply too beautiful for me to put down in words.
[okay, i think i got all the key words to "Explain how the neurotransimitter reaches the post synaptic membrane from the pre synaptic membrane. 2m" But thats not the point.]

on the other hand, it is fragile too.

when any one of the processes ceases to work properly, no matter how "trival" it seems, the result may be detrimental. if you look at cancer, the underlying principle is simple - the continuous, uncontrolled division of cells. see how it devastates people's lives and baffles the researchers finding a cure. as much as we sometimes don't want to admit, we just can't beat nature. period.

so be thankful that you are alive and kicking. stop lamenting about life.

we take too many things for granted, only to realise it when its too late.

):

i feel like

going home
eating my mum's ai xin maggi mee for supper
watching csi/law and order/grey's/24/alias
having my summer holidays NOW
going home
hanging out at home, doing random stuff
catching a movie at cine
walking down orchard road
going home
suntanning
having Singaporean food
being there for the arrival of my baby niece, lizard Lizzie
going home

but i know i can't.

well, not for another 6 months.

):

first entry for 2007

i guess it's about time for an update. i never blog enough, as usual.

anyway, though it's laggy, i still wanna shout
HAPPY NEW YEAR!
may it be better than 2006. [it has to, doesn't it?] ((:

i had a wonderful, wonderful christmas dinner with Manhon, Zuthur and Sarah at Sarah's kitchen. i took like tons of pictures of them stuffing the poor turkey with potato, bacon, stuffings (some 3-in-1 sauce from the supermarket) and butter. it was hilarious and very fun. i even took a video of them at work. too bad theres no sound. ):


operation turkey.

my London trip was fantastic too. the post Christmas sale is really fabulous! virtually everything is on 50% sale or more. i'm not gonna shop anymore during anytime of the year except christmas and new year sale. =D right, maybe not.

no worries, i managed to keep to my budget. i'm a real miser at heart. hahah.

well, i have 4 more days before school starts. better have a head start with my ethics essay. cos i'll be going to Prague with a few friends on the 18th.

yay!

christmas

merry christmas! ((((:

ying rong's

here you go. (:

i miss hanging out with you a lot a lot.

love you babe!

check this out if you have nothing better to do. its quite fun. found it when i was doing research for my lab report some time back.



some good things are worth waiting for. but what if you have to spend a lifetime waiting?

my christmas break so far

hmm, time for a li'l update. im having my december break now. i'm enjoying it. =D i love the free and easy feeling.

i can

sleep at 3 am and wake u at noon, thinking that it's only 10 am.
do nothing but design my blogskin the entire day without feeling guilty
have drinks at some random bar and drink to my hearts' content w a handful of friends
talk about philosophers and afterlife at 2 am in the morning after getting a bit high
have flames (leeds equivalent of KFC, only that it's better) at 230 am
go supermaket-ing, buy 2 weeks' worth of crap and cook everyday
do some work and feel really hardworking for starting early on my stupid essay

well, basically thats what i've doing for the past week. quite shiok. makes coming to leeds to study and staying for christmas worth it. =D

as for my Cologne trip last weekend, it was terrific!

quality company, beautiful scenery, refreshing beer and great weather. what more can one ask for a holiday except for time to freeze right at the moment for you to savour? :) Cologne is really a beautiful, beautiful city. the cathedral alone blows you away. too bad my old camera sucks. i swear that the shutter speed is like 3 whole seconds. its worse when it's on night mode. it's terrible. cos the night scene is so darn gorgeous.

here u go, pictures taken in during the trip.


river rhine [dunno the bridge's name]


Cologne Cathedral [600 years of history, so must touch and kiss according to Zuthur]


one of the food stalls in the german christmas market. the food is fantastic! [except for the weird giam cai thing w soup]


german train. it's like FOC cos the tickets machine is inside the train cabin.


shopping on a saturday =/


ice cream, anybody?


me, Zuthur and Sarah. Cologne beer is so darn good! (:


river rhine. chocolate museum on the RHS.


taken during the long dreary bus ride back to London. beautiful isn't it?


Sarah, me. Leeds train station. sulking, cos i f*cking forgot the train tickets! missed our train and had to spend another 50 quid on our new ticket. yes, go ahead and punch me. ):


heading to Hogwarts?


pretty self explanatory huh?


London underground


London. what square is it called again?


yours truly, on train back to Leeds from London. we didnt miss it this time round.

well, this pretty much sums up my holiday trip to London and Cologne. i'll be heading for London again on the 27th. POST-CHRISTMAS SALES! we're gonna do so much junk there! have duck rice, pizza, cha guay tiao, kebab, watch musicals [phatom of the opera, billy elliot, nutcracker, evita.... ..], put flowers on karl marx's grave(?), RETAIL THERAPY etc etc etc. ahhh. heehee. quite looking forward to it. =D hopefully Ted Baker will have a mega sale on this trench coat.

well, i guess staying in Leeds for Christmas isn't such a bad choice after all. i'm so glad that i have some very good company. (((:

It's like ten thousand spoons when all you need is a knife.

BREATHE IN

Breathe In - Frou Frou

I read you and God I'm good at it I'm so spot on
Chord shapes in air go press that dissonance if you dare
And you breathing in finesse an innocent
From her partying

And I'm high enough from all the waiting
To ride a wave on your inhaling
And I'm high enough from all the waiting
To ride a wave on your inhaling
'Cause I love you no?
Can't help but love, you know...

What part of no don't you understand I've told you before
To just get off my case this isn't happening stop this now
And I where was I? I have to be somewhere
Now where did I put it?

And I'm high enough from all the waiting
To ride a wave on your inhaling
And I'm high enough from all the waiting
To ride a wave on your inhaling
'Cause I love you no?
Can't help but love you, no...

Is this it, is this it, is this it?

Yes hello we're back and we're taking calls
Now what was the question?

And I'm high enough from all the waiting
To ride a wave on your inhaling
And I'm high enough from all the waiting
To ride a wave on your inhaling
'Cause I love you no?
Can't help but love you, no...

raaaaaainn

i dun like the cold rain, doing lab report and people who think that they are princesses. but i like the feeling of after exams, the start of term breaks and good company. ((:

talking about striking a balance. haha.

ah well, im going for an opera in a bit. it's called peter grimes. hope i wouldn't fall asleep. i just wanna go for the experience. the theater looks really glam with the lights and red carpet from outside. wonder what is it like inside.

more later, if im not too lazy. heee. im freeeeee from studying for the next 4 weeks! woohoo.

shit, lab report. ugh. =/

title and registration

Title and Registration - Death Cab for Cutie

The glove compartment is inaccurately named
And everybody knows it
So I'm proposing a swift orderly change

'Cause behind its door there's nothing to keep my fingers warm
And all I find are souvenirs from better times
Before the gleam of your tail lights fading east
To find yourself a better life.

I was searching for some legal document
As the rain beat down on the hood
When I stumbled upon pictures I tried to forget
And that's how this idea was drilled into my head
'Cause it's too important
To stay the way it's been

But there's no blame for how our love did slowly fade,
And now that it's gone, it's like it wasn't there at all
And here I rest where disappointment and regret collide
Lying awake at night

And there's no blame for how our love did slowly fade
And now that it's gone, it's like it wasn't there at all
And here I rest where disappointment and regret collide
Lying awake at night, up all night
When I'm lying awake at night

nice, nice, nice. im hooked to this song.
well, i should be sleeping now. shit. im getting hungry. man, i dun want the sarah syndrome! =X
LOL*