outside looking in

sigh. results wil b out on wed. wonder how it'l b like. =/

starting work tmr. hope it goes on well. i'm suppose to go thru their common test ppr marking scheme w em. ah well.

im like in e outside looking in mode. hurr.

im a lazy pig..

oh bother! i'm absolutely bored
and yet enjoying this newfound boredom. haha. this sounds totally contradicting. well, i guess it happens when u'r jobless, bf-less and sch-less. its like u get to wake up every morning doing wadeva u fancy. this is not e best part tho. e best part is to indulge in e laziness wo feeling guilty or part of u dreading e consequences. muahaha.

but of cos there'r always 2 sides to eth. stimes i get paranoid abt not having to do ath and worry abt not worrying abt ath. hur. this is so absolutely weird. sigh. mayb i'm just not use to being lazy.
stimes when i get too bored, i'll start imaging all e tiny neurons firing signals in my head telling me tt im so bored tt im doing all tt im doing. haa. tt sounds funny.

ah, mr thomas just told me tt e teacher i'm relieving wants to see me regarding her lessons. great! i have sth to do now..

ugh. overnight coke sucks.

just for fun

http://kevan.org/johari?name=gniygniy

just curious abt wad ppl think of me. haha.

take it back

Take It Back – Loquat

I know all you u wouldn’t see
But these neuroses go pretty deep
And the words we use
I have the nicest ones

I know what a jerk I am
And what a pain in the ass you are

I don’t want to drive u up a cliff
So before we get to that
I gotta say sorry I take it back
I’m sure u don’t wanna burn me apart and down
So before we get to that
Could you please just take it back

It looks as though you are cursed
As for being difficult turned to worse
But at times you’ll find
I’ll make it easy on you

I know what a jerk I am
And what a pain in the ass you are

I don’t want to drive u up a cliff so before
So before we get to that I gotta say sorry I take it back
I’m sure u don’t wanna burn me apart and down so before
We get to that could u please just take it back

Listen I heard what you said
You don’t have to repeat it
I'd rather that conversation got totally deleted

I don’t want to drive u up a cliff
So before we get to that I gotta say sorry I take it back
I’m sure you don’t wanna burn me apart and down so before
We get to that could you
Please just take it back

hur. finally manage to figure out e lyrics for this song. tho i bet its loaded w errors. but oh well, since i cant find this lyrics anywhere i gotta make do w this. haa. mayb i shld get their CD online or sth. heeheeeee..

my mood

sunny/overcast

club

i forgot e flash. haha. but e lights at e side r pretty nice.


jas, tiff, me.


james, james' friend [didnt quite get his name =X]


james, in lala land

went to this party at chinablack ytd. it was my first time clubbing w my friends and hitting e dance floor. haha. it was quite fun. but e LOUD music and e smoke can b rather irritating. we had to shout into each other's ears like we'r all deaf.

anyhow, we watched walk e line after we left e club. nice show. but james fell asleep about half an hr into e movie and only woke up after we took e picture. hahah. by then it was 5 am alr. i've nv been in town so early. lol.

its great to have friends who understand u, knowing things that u just cant quite put in words. but know it anyway. =)

e bottom right-hand corner says, "~cryptic~".

took this at an obscure corner at raffles place mrt after work few days back. haha. i must say that this vandalism is pretty well done. cos its at a corner where e watchful surveillance camera cant reach and that piece of ppr is like stuck to e wall - no way of tearing it out. mayb except e corners. haha.

OH! for those who dunno yet. i'm gonna change my job!! got a felief teaching post at phs. haha. im teaching chem. full time. =D yay* no more aunties, ironing, standing for 9 hrs str.

but i think i'l miss doris tho. she's really nice.

okay. gtg. im going to malaysia. again. woohooooo. hahaha.. and i think i'l wear heels tonight. an excuse not to dance. =X

cny

oh well my photo-taking skills sucks. hands shake too much. hur. anyhow, tts how i spent my 1st day of cny night. =D quite fun. and i didnt have to foot e bill. lol*

angst?

"For What Reason"
- death cab for cutie

This won't be the last you'll hear from me...
it's just the start.
I hope that he keeps you up for weeks like you did to me.

I will hold a candle up to you to singe your skin.
brace yourself...
i'm bent with bitterness i cant forsake

When your apologies fail to ring true,
(you're) so slick with that sarcastic slew or phrases like 'i thought you knew',
while keeping me in hot pursuit.

Tracing the plot finds
skin touching skin (abscence follows).
In the end, i win every time as ink remains.
Sour tastes prevail as you play back the tape machine.

....

weird ppl.

i've been working for 14 days. really new and different experience altogether compared to sch. [like DUH]

anyway, i've met customers who

: just wanna see wad other ppl is looking at.
: taught me how to cure pimples [didnt really work tho]
: like to ask e same qn ["nice or not?" *3165428498578219 times or "really got nomore stock alr ar?" at 2pm and at 7pm]
: try for e sake of trying and just leave wo a word and dump e clothes somewhere
: come into e shop to kill time and tell u str to ur face. [like we have to kill for her]
: are really sweet and polite and understanding
: finds non-existence defects in a 10 bucks cardigan and demands for a 50% off for tt piece
: just want u to dig out e new piece for her during peak hour and later say tt she stil prefer e old one cos she dun HAVE TO IRON WHEN SHE GETS HOME!!!
: has colour theme each week for her dressing
: comes down every lunch to take up space and tell everyone theres 20% off when she fancies
: chatted w me for half an fr like we'r old, long-lost friends and den asked for my no.
: think tt im darn tall
: thought tt im 57 kg. [HAHAHAHAHAHAHA]
: only buy stuff under 10 bucks
: bought a long obiang skirt frm us and went ard asking other customers if her skirt is nice.
: are just so charismatic tt u just wanna do ur best to help her.
: won a 10,000 bucks voucher at a shop at parkmall.
: comes to e shop almost everyday to see if theres stock for her fav skirt tt doesn have her size.
: open their eyes in shock when they found out tt work shirts/bags r actually 15 bucks only.

ah well. and e list goes on. they can b quite funny at times. lol. and totally weird.
hmm. mayb work dun suck so much. my boss and colleague r nice ppl. who like to bitch. =X

randomm comments.

i read 1 1/2 books today. finish 1/2 of malka and e undomestic goddess. e latter is quite a bimbotic book. but well. i read it for e happily ever after ending. haa. hur.
and to imagine a special someone telling me that he "preferred not to be six hrs' drive away" frm me and gave up his dream for it. haha. i think im in fantasyland.

sigh. i guess i shld get a grip.

but speaking of a special someone. i think tt everyone needs someone. to rely on and just having someone. not just in e form of bf/gf/husband/wife tt sort. but friend[s] too. but well. it aint tt easy. stimes. things just dun go e way u want it to or anticipant it to be. and often, tho its all unspoken and avoided, u just feel e tension and it spoils ur day - totally.

hurr. i love and hate rainy weathers.

turn me on

Norah Jones
"Turn Me On"


Like a flower
Waiting to bloom
Like a lightbulb
In a dark room
I'm just sittin here waiting for you
To come on home and turn me on

Like the desert waiting for the rain
Like a school kid waiting for the spring
I'm just sitting here waiting for you
To come on home and turn me on

My poor heart
Its been so dark
Since you've been gone
After all your the one who turns me off
You're the only one who can turn me back on

My hot fires waiting for a new?
My glass is waiting for some fresh ice cubes
I'm just sitting here waiting for you
To come on home and turn me on
Turn me on

quando quando quando

Quando, Quando, Quando when when when

by Michael Buble
*featuring Nelly Furtado

Tell me when will you be mine
Tell me quando quando quando
We can share a love devine
Please don't make me wait again

When will you say yes to me
Tell me quando quando quando
You mean happiness to me
Oh my lover tell me when

Every moments a day
Every day seems a lifetime
Let me show you the way
To a joy beyond compare

I can't wait a moment more
Tell me quando quando quando
Say its me that you adore
And then darling tell me when

Every moments a day
Every day seems a lifetime
Let me show you the way
To a joy beyond compare

I can't wait a moment more
Tell me quando quando quando
Say its me that you adore
And then darling tell me when

Whoa lover tell me when
Oh darling tell me when
Oh come on tell me when
Yea tell me when

dunno why. but i feel romantic today. guess its e rainy weather and this song just popped out on my playlist. it feels almost perfect, except i have no one to b romantic to. well mayb only myself or my pillow. ah well.

hurr. hope cny wil come soon. not for e ang bao. cos i really wanna quit my current job at e end of jan. kiasu aunties r e worst specise on planet earth.

'er, do u have a new piece for this top.'

'yup, there is'

fumble fumble fumble

'u want to check e new piece?'

'okay.'

scrutinise scrutinise scrutinise

'well, i think i want e old one.'

@#%^?*&

hasty entry, not Tasty

oh well. this is gonna b short. i gotta go off to prepare for work alr.

ytd, this customer of mine kindly told me how to treat my pimply forehead. this is how it goes.

1. peel some orange skins. [well, if u like oranges just might as well eat e pericarp]
2. soak e orange skins into water
3. leave it overnight in e fridge
4. apply e water on affected area and leave it to dry
5. repeat 2/3 times a day
6. wait and see e results.

well, to those who think they need some pimple treatment, just try this la. its cheap and perhaps it really helps. cos e most nutritious part of a fruit is usually e fruit wall. and orange skin may contain some acids to kill pimples. lol*

and she told me to spread it ard. so ya. here it is. :]

shit, gotta go. bye.

work, 1st time. hurr.

okay. today's my first day at work. it was quite okay. my colleage is qite nice. v patient w me and not laughing at me too much when i made a mistake. haha~ oh well. and after standing for 9 hrs. my legs and back are aching. hurrr. tmr wil be e same i guess. but i hope tt i'l b less gong when customers ask abt e price/size/things tt u ask when ur buying clothes.

hur. tired. hope i can make a couple of earrings b4 i sleep. need to replenish my stock at e minimart downstairs. [im putting my earrings there for e auntie to sell. and she's nice enough to help :)]

okay. im off to a nice shower to relax. hurrrrrrr.

my li'l sis ordered me to put this down: my first day of sch im v inspired to work v hard. vaaa[very] hard.

NYE

okay. today is e last day of e yr 2005. and this is my list of new yr's resolution.

1. earn and save money [50bucks a month?] to spend? lol.
2. be more confident of myself?
3. learn driving. mobilitymobilitymobility
4. lose some weight
5. jog at least twice a week [hmmmmm] or do suction lipectomy.
6. blog more regularly
7. speak up [more?]
8. cultivate good habits like brushing my teeth [every morning. oops. night. =D]
9. eat less junk [m&s junkies]; more health food [a.k.a un-tasty food]
10. dream less abt dark tall handsome strangers hitting on me. ="(
11. read more books. not merely re-reading harry potter.
12. b more IT-savvy. [DUN LAUGH. I REPEAT DO NOT LAUGH]
13. tag more on ppl's blog. [dun b a mere ghost]
14. initiate more activities w friends. [dun keep lazing away at home reading and pigging out]
15. buy contacts and white metal frame specs. nice
16. ask money from dad less
17. well, talk more to my dad
18. b less of a mummy's girl [hope my mum doesnt see this. hurrr]
19. buy less bags and clothes. HEEEE
20. lose weight
21. learn how to cook. in case i have to go abroad to do uni
22. psycho my mum into getting cable tv [i want MTV]
23. save 110 bucks to get v nice and gorgeous diamond alike crystal belt frm arab street. =/
24. make more accessories to sell/give ppl
25. watch love actually w little sis on christmas
26. keep my messy room tidier
27. check up e dictionary more [instead of telling myself i cant know every word]
28. borrow and watch csi season 4 [rizal plsssssssss]
29. play more tennis and improve myself. [so that SOME ppl wil quit laughing at me. hmphf.]
30. eat less chocolate bars. [tasty]
31. read newsppr more. [so tt when some big shot VIP dies i wldn sound like a bimbo when a foreigner asks me abt it]
32. wear more REAL bras. [not just sports bra]
33. be a nicer person. bitch less
34. be less cynical

okay. thats abt all for now. heh. its alr 010106. -gasps- i spent a yr trying to write out my new yr's reso. LOL* oh well.

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYBODY! may it b a fruitful yr. =D

and just wanna thank all my friends [old, new, not so old but not too new.] for being there and laughing at/w me. haha~ i wldn b me wo u all. :)

and i say hooowoohoowooo.

im quite bored at home. getting fat and stuff. sigh. =/ i need to find a job soon. i feel parasitic. living off my parents and doing nth too constructive. except converting oxygen to carbon dioxide. hurrr. even plants have more use den me. =// -sobs-

hur better look thru e papers and call up phs.

i was e one worth leaving.

"The District Sleeps Alone Tonight" - Postal Service

Smeared black ink... your palms are sweaty
And I'm barely listening to last demands
I'm staring at the asphalt wondering what's buried underneath
Where I am
Where I am

I'll wear my badge... a vinyl sticker with big block letters adherent to my chest
That tells your new friends I am a visitor here...I am not permanent
And the only thing keeping me dry is
Where I am
Where I am
Where I am

You seem so out of context in this gaudy apartment complex
A stranger with your door key explaining that I am just visiting
And I am finally seeing
Why I was the one worth leaving
Why I was the one worth leaving
D.C. sleeps alone tonight
Where I am
Where I am
Where I am

You seem so so out of context in this gaudy apartment complex
A stranger with your door key explaining that I am just visiting
And I am finally seing
Why I was the one worth leaving
Why I was the one worth leaving
Where I am
Where I am
Where I am

The district sleeps alone tonight after the bars turn out their lights
And send the autos swerving into the loneliest evening
And I am finally seeing
Why I was the one worth leaving
Why I was the one worth leaving
Why I was the one worth leaving
Why I was the one worth leaving

okay. im blogging, again. im leaving for KL tonight w jas rizal and eddie. :) hope it'l b a gd trip. haha. its so exciting!! 1st time traveling wo my mum or sch teachers. hahahaha.

abercrombie and fitch HERE I COME!!!!!!

and tif has kindly reminded me bout e great sale. HAHAHA. YAY*!

muahahaha. i think e leaves worked. =D

leaves.

anyway, 8 leaves fell on to me ytd. hahaha. 8 wishes. muahahaha.

hurrrrrrrrrrr

after some considerations, i've decided to lower e price of my earrings to $3.90 or $4.90 depending on the size and design. so cheerios!
oh and im trying to make more earrings to cater to e bimbos. LOL* =X

anyway, its v tiring to be misunderstood all e time. hurrrrr. and there is a limit to eth. even nice-ness.