end of the week

sigh. im tired. both physically and metally. i really need a break. i want to have my own space and time. but when i have nth to do. im gonna complain too. i dun really wanna resort to watching tv to let those fictional stories fill up my life.

it'll only make me feel emptier than ever.


hur. maybe its just the raging hormones that's making me all sulky and stuff. maybe.


im such a mummy's girl.

july.

JULY: Fun to be with. Secretive. Difficult to fathom and to be understood. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Takes pride in oneself. Has reputation. Easily consoled. Honest. Concerned about people's feelings. Tactful. Friendly. Approachable. Emotional temperamental and unpredictable. Moody and easily hurt. Witty and sparkly. Not revengeful. Forgiving but never forgets. Dislikes nonsensical and unnecessary things. Guides others physically and mentally. Sensitive and forms impressions carefully. Caring and loving. Treats others equally. Strong sense of sympathy. Wary and sharp. Judges people through observations. Hardworking. No difficulties in studying. Loves to be alone. Always broods about the past and the old friends. Likes to be quiet. Homely person. Waits for friends. Never looks for friends. Not aggressive unless provoked. Prone to having stomach and dieting problems. Loves to be loved. Easily hurt but takes long to recover.



haha. some are so untrue.
but some r pretty accurate.
do list out the untrue ones on my tagboard. it should b pretty interesting. hahaha.

sheesh.

i've been getting quite a bit of mails from uk these days. heh heh. cos all the unis that i've applied in march thru UCAS [univerisity and college admission service] are offering me a place in their unis. so now i have 4 choices. [oh no. 5 including University of Western Australia.] they are namely University of Leeds, Bristol, Aberdeen and Liverpool John Moore University. i am like reciveing mails 3 or 4 times per week. i got newsletters from the school, accomodation guide, course prospectus and of cos, the official offer letter from UCAS. so i guess if NTU or NUS dunwan me, i'll be going off in sept to uk.

it was actually pretty exciting when i was applying for the unis. like going away to other places. and a chance to experience a whole new life, meet different ppl. learn to be independent etc etc.

hur. but when it really seems like i really gotta go. im worried. can i adapt to the new environment? wad if i cant? and wad abt my friends and family? [i'd really miss em.] if i really go there to study, it'll be a good 3 or 4 years. tt'l b quite some time. =/ sigh.



anyway, i'll be going to hong kong on the 20th june. its like a shopping-cum-visit trip.
hope that it'll be fulfilling.

just for laughs

i got quite a funny call just now from someone who 'just wanna chat w me'.

now, here's a rough dissection of the caller;

ulterior motive: to impress [by telling me that he read some self-help books, checked the meaning of a certain word and was trying to share his findings.] and to flatter.

reason [caller stated] for calling: just wanna chat. to know me better. he said that after observing me, he found that my personality dun fit the "elite sports person" personality profile. tried to get me to explain that. hello. im not even in the national youth team. could have been and the actual thing are different. and who said that im 'quiet and one who keeps alot to herself'? its just a signal from me to him. like, big and flashing "clear off".
after that, he asked if i chat w ppl on msn. sigh. who doesnt? its just a matter of who is the person in question. so i ended up telling him that i dun like to talk alot, esp to random ppl. well, i almost added 'like u' to tt sentence. but i figured tt its not so nice.

eloquence: =/

characteristics: likes to show off. thick, very. weird.

sigh. so the conclusion is that he tried too hard, and failed miserably in his mission. hur. now i must more find ways to avoid him in school. or try to get him enlightened, somehow.

its hard to be nice.

hopes and fears.

i had a weird dream ytd. the possibility of it happening in reality is less den zero. but i rmb being really contented in that dream. as if i was happy, all over again.

yet, as reality kicks in and when i rationalise eth. im back to square one. together w all my hopes and fears.

deesire

life

yay*

i finished 2 weeks worth of lesson plan. acids and bases.
anyone wants a recap on O'level chem??
lol.
i think im having an overdose of csi. been watching it every night before i sleep. kept having dreams abt being involved in csi. and i dun usually rmb my dreams. oh well, mayb one fine day i'll b wearing one of those "FORENSICS" vast tt Grissom wears while i work.
hahaha.. its a fatter den me hope.
like wad my mum said, singapore is too safe. we dun need so many CSIs ard.

wadeva. its nice daydreaming once in awhile.

skinny

okay. new skin. HEE. ripped the pic off www.deviantart.com

be still my heart

Be Still My Heart - The Postal Service

I was running late for work
So I didn't change my shirt
The evening's drinks left a lingering taste in my mouth
And when I left
You were fast asleep
Tangled in the sheets
And on the bus I could have sworn it was all a dream
And it didn't happen to me

And then I felt the scrapes
From the slippery subway grate.
Oh how you laughed
At my complete lack of grace.
But I could not recall
A more perfect fall
Cause when I looked up into your eyes
It didn't hurt at all.

And I thought, be still my heart
This could be a brand new start, with you.
And it will be clear
If I wake up and you're still here with me in the morning.

And I thought, be still my heart
This could be a brand new start, with you.
And it will be clear
If I wake up and you're still here with me in the morning.

wad i hear these days

hah? why like that? haiyo.

ooh. den wad are u planning to do?

well, u can try applying.

oh. okay.

results are not eth, its really abt e person u are.

er, are u bluffing me?

not bad. are u like celebrating somewhere?

sigh. below expectation leh.

its like u'r not up there nor down there.


sigh. i hate results to nowhere. totally.

the girl in the other room

the girl in the other room - diana krall



The girl in the other room
She knows by now
There's something in all of her fears
Now she wears it threadbare
She sits on the floor
The glass pressed tight to the wall
She hears murmurs low
The paper is peeling
Her eyes staring straight at the ceiling

Maybe they're there
Maybe it's nothing at all
As she draws lipstick smears on the wall

The girl in the other room
She powders her face
And stares hard
Into her reflection

The girl in the other room
She stifles a yawn
Adjusting the strap of her gown
She tosses her tresses
Her lover undresses
Turning the last lamp light down
What's that voice we're hearing?
We should be sleeping
Could that be someone who's weeping?

Maybe she's there
Maybe there's nothing to see
It's just a trace of what used to be

The girl in the other room
She darkens her lash
And blushes
She seems to look familiar

outside looking in

sigh. results wil b out on wed. wonder how it'l b like. =/

starting work tmr. hope it goes on well. i'm suppose to go thru their common test ppr marking scheme w em. ah well.

im like in e outside looking in mode. hurr.

im a lazy pig..

oh bother! i'm absolutely bored
and yet enjoying this newfound boredom. haha. this sounds totally contradicting. well, i guess it happens when u'r jobless, bf-less and sch-less. its like u get to wake up every morning doing wadeva u fancy. this is not e best part tho. e best part is to indulge in e laziness wo feeling guilty or part of u dreading e consequences. muahaha.

but of cos there'r always 2 sides to eth. stimes i get paranoid abt not having to do ath and worry abt not worrying abt ath. hur. this is so absolutely weird. sigh. mayb i'm just not use to being lazy.
stimes when i get too bored, i'll start imaging all e tiny neurons firing signals in my head telling me tt im so bored tt im doing all tt im doing. haa. tt sounds funny.

ah, mr thomas just told me tt e teacher i'm relieving wants to see me regarding her lessons. great! i have sth to do now..

ugh. overnight coke sucks.

just for fun

http://kevan.org/johari?name=gniygniy

just curious abt wad ppl think of me. haha.

take it back

Take It Back – Loquat

I know all you u wouldn’t see
But these neuroses go pretty deep
And the words we use
I have the nicest ones

I know what a jerk I am
And what a pain in the ass you are

I don’t want to drive u up a cliff
So before we get to that
I gotta say sorry I take it back
I’m sure u don’t wanna burn me apart and down
So before we get to that
Could you please just take it back

It looks as though you are cursed
As for being difficult turned to worse
But at times you’ll find
I’ll make it easy on you

I know what a jerk I am
And what a pain in the ass you are

I don’t want to drive u up a cliff so before
So before we get to that I gotta say sorry I take it back
I’m sure u don’t wanna burn me apart and down so before
We get to that could u please just take it back

Listen I heard what you said
You don’t have to repeat it
I'd rather that conversation got totally deleted

I don’t want to drive u up a cliff
So before we get to that I gotta say sorry I take it back
I’m sure you don’t wanna burn me apart and down so before
We get to that could you
Please just take it back

hur. finally manage to figure out e lyrics for this song. tho i bet its loaded w errors. but oh well, since i cant find this lyrics anywhere i gotta make do w this. haa. mayb i shld get their CD online or sth. heeheeeee..

my mood

sunny/overcast

club

i forgot e flash. haha. but e lights at e side r pretty nice.


jas, tiff, me.


james, james' friend [didnt quite get his name =X]


james, in lala land

went to this party at chinablack ytd. it was my first time clubbing w my friends and hitting e dance floor. haha. it was quite fun. but e LOUD music and e smoke can b rather irritating. we had to shout into each other's ears like we'r all deaf.

anyhow, we watched walk e line after we left e club. nice show. but james fell asleep about half an hr into e movie and only woke up after we took e picture. hahah. by then it was 5 am alr. i've nv been in town so early. lol.

its great to have friends who understand u, knowing things that u just cant quite put in words. but know it anyway. =)

e bottom right-hand corner says, "~cryptic~".

took this at an obscure corner at raffles place mrt after work few days back. haha. i must say that this vandalism is pretty well done. cos its at a corner where e watchful surveillance camera cant reach and that piece of ppr is like stuck to e wall - no way of tearing it out. mayb except e corners. haha.

OH! for those who dunno yet. i'm gonna change my job!! got a felief teaching post at phs. haha. im teaching chem. full time. =D yay* no more aunties, ironing, standing for 9 hrs str.

but i think i'l miss doris tho. she's really nice.

okay. gtg. im going to malaysia. again. woohooooo. hahaha.. and i think i'l wear heels tonight. an excuse not to dance. =X

cny

oh well my photo-taking skills sucks. hands shake too much. hur. anyhow, tts how i spent my 1st day of cny night. =D quite fun. and i didnt have to foot e bill. lol*

angst?

"For What Reason"
- death cab for cutie

This won't be the last you'll hear from me...
it's just the start.
I hope that he keeps you up for weeks like you did to me.

I will hold a candle up to you to singe your skin.
brace yourself...
i'm bent with bitterness i cant forsake

When your apologies fail to ring true,
(you're) so slick with that sarcastic slew or phrases like 'i thought you knew',
while keeping me in hot pursuit.

Tracing the plot finds
skin touching skin (abscence follows).
In the end, i win every time as ink remains.
Sour tastes prevail as you play back the tape machine.

....