hee. a MacBook asks nicely. =D
ahahaa.
yes, im getting this. soon.
its beautiful.
Sunday, June 11, 2006
Saturday, May 06, 2006
invigilation
i've been doing invigilation for the past week. i think this is highly suitable for ppl who like to pace and space. all u need to do is to walk and forth the rows, stare at the kids and get lost in your own thoughts till its time to collect their papers. its so darn boring.
well, actually i do like the spacing part. its how i function as a person. i dun understand those who needs zero personal space. like as if u'll cease to exist if ur on ur own [physically and metally] for just a tiny minute. for me its like the opposite. i need those times to feel alive sometimes. and yes, i do need to interaction w ppl and have company; im not an autist. but not an overdose of it. it makes me breathless. and if u think tt im weird. im not. its just who i am and what i do.
We should all learn how to move on; you'll be surprised at what can happen.
well, actually i do like the spacing part. its how i function as a person. i dun understand those who needs zero personal space. like as if u'll cease to exist if ur on ur own [physically and metally] for just a tiny minute. for me its like the opposite. i need those times to feel alive sometimes. and yes, i do need to interaction w ppl and have company; im not an autist. but not an overdose of it. it makes me breathless. and if u think tt im weird. im not. its just who i am and what i do.
We should all learn how to move on; you'll be surprised at what can happen.
Thursday, May 04, 2006
lousy behaviour
i knew she was lying. it was the 0.1 sec of hesitation and that slight quiver in her voice.
got meh? u sure not? ... maybe i was talking to myself.
that was such a bad lie. it was like she's pleading insanity to get away w her actions. [actually come to think abt it, most ppl charged w first degree murders to tt. haha.] ah well, not like its really a v big thing. just that it reflects quite a bit abt her. is it so hard to just admit your mistake and apologise graciously?
maybe if its me, i cant do it too.
sigh. i still haven get any news from ntu or nus yet. looks like i might just spend the next few years overseas.
got meh? u sure not? ... maybe i was talking to myself.
that was such a bad lie. it was like she's pleading insanity to get away w her actions. [actually come to think abt it, most ppl charged w first degree murders to tt. haha.] ah well, not like its really a v big thing. just that it reflects quite a bit abt her. is it so hard to just admit your mistake and apologise graciously?
maybe if its me, i cant do it too.
sigh. i still haven get any news from ntu or nus yet. looks like i might just spend the next few years overseas.
Monday, May 01, 2006
nice.
then my mother and i are nearly alone in the courtroom. i lean forward to kiss her on the cheek. 'you did really great up there, ' i tell her, because i don't know how to say what i really want to: that the people you love can surprise you everyday. that maybe who we are isn't so much about what we do, but rather what we're capable of when we least expect it.
okay. i spent my whole labour day reading and eating away. its really quite an ideal thing to do. except when your mum ans sis are slogging away, making you feel guilty.
anyway, bit above is from the book that i finished reading today. its my sister's keeper, by jodi picoult. its a beautiful book. the emotions and thoughts going through the characters' mind are so vivid that it feels almost like im going through their dilemma. what i say here cant do justice to that book. u gotta read it and feel it for yourself. (=
and i can totally relate to the part where anna wants to be kate's sister all her life.
okay. i spent my whole labour day reading and eating away. its really quite an ideal thing to do. except when your mum ans sis are slogging away, making you feel guilty.
anyway, bit above is from the book that i finished reading today. its my sister's keeper, by jodi picoult. its a beautiful book. the emotions and thoughts going through the characters' mind are so vivid that it feels almost like im going through their dilemma. what i say here cant do justice to that book. u gotta read it and feel it for yourself. (=
and i can totally relate to the part where anna wants to be kate's sister all her life.
Friday, April 28, 2006
end of the week
sigh. im tired. both physically and metally. i really need a break. i want to have my own space and time. but when i have nth to do. im gonna complain too. i dun really wanna resort to watching tv to let those fictional stories fill up my life.
it'll only make me feel emptier than ever.
hur. maybe its just the raging hormones that's making me all sulky and stuff. maybe.
im such a mummy's girl.
it'll only make me feel emptier than ever.
hur. maybe its just the raging hormones that's making me all sulky and stuff. maybe.
im such a mummy's girl.
Sunday, April 23, 2006
july.
JULY: Fun to be with. Secretive. Difficult to fathom and to be understood. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Takes pride in oneself. Has reputation. Easily consoled. Honest. Concerned about people's feelings. Tactful. Friendly. Approachable. Emotional temperamental and unpredictable. Moody and easily hurt. Witty and sparkly. Not revengeful. Forgiving but never forgets. Dislikes nonsensical and unnecessary things. Guides others physically and mentally. Sensitive and forms impressions carefully. Caring and loving. Treats others equally. Strong sense of sympathy. Wary and sharp. Judges people through observations. Hardworking. No difficulties in studying. Loves to be alone. Always broods about the past and the old friends. Likes to be quiet. Homely person. Waits for friends. Never looks for friends. Not aggressive unless provoked. Prone to having stomach and dieting problems. Loves to be loved. Easily hurt but takes long to recover.
haha. some are so untrue.
but some r pretty accurate.
do list out the untrue ones on my tagboard. it should b pretty interesting. hahaha.
haha. some are so untrue.
but some r pretty accurate.
do list out the untrue ones on my tagboard. it should b pretty interesting. hahaha.
sheesh.
i've been getting quite a bit of mails from uk these days. heh heh. cos all the unis that i've applied in march thru UCAS [univerisity and college admission service] are offering me a place in their unis. so now i have 4 choices. [oh no. 5 including University of Western Australia.] they are namely University of Leeds, Bristol, Aberdeen and Liverpool John Moore University. i am like reciveing mails 3 or 4 times per week. i got newsletters from the school, accomodation guide, course prospectus and of cos, the official offer letter from UCAS. so i guess if NTU or NUS dunwan me, i'll be going off in sept to uk.
it was actually pretty exciting when i was applying for the unis. like going away to other places. and a chance to experience a whole new life, meet different ppl. learn to be independent etc etc.
hur. but when it really seems like i really gotta go. im worried. can i adapt to the new environment? wad if i cant? and wad abt my friends and family? [i'd really miss em.] if i really go there to study, it'll be a good 3 or 4 years. tt'l b quite some time. =/ sigh.
anyway, i'll be going to hong kong on the 20th june. its like a shopping-cum-visit trip.
hope that it'll be fulfilling.
it was actually pretty exciting when i was applying for the unis. like going away to other places. and a chance to experience a whole new life, meet different ppl. learn to be independent etc etc.
hur. but when it really seems like i really gotta go. im worried. can i adapt to the new environment? wad if i cant? and wad abt my friends and family? [i'd really miss em.] if i really go there to study, it'll be a good 3 or 4 years. tt'l b quite some time. =/ sigh.
anyway, i'll be going to hong kong on the 20th june. its like a shopping-cum-visit trip.
hope that it'll be fulfilling.
Sunday, April 16, 2006
just for laughs
i got quite a funny call just now from someone who 'just wanna chat w me'.
now, here's a rough dissection of the caller;
ulterior motive: to impress [by telling me that he read some self-help books, checked the meaning of a certain word and was trying to share his findings.] and to flatter.
reason [caller stated] for calling: just wanna chat. to know me better. he said that after observing me, he found that my personality dun fit the "elite sports person" personality profile. tried to get me to explain that. hello. im not even in the national youth team. could have been and the actual thing are different. and who said that im 'quiet and one who keeps alot to herself'? its just a signal from me to him. like, big and flashing "clear off".
after that, he asked if i chat w ppl on msn. sigh. who doesnt? its just a matter of who is the person in question. so i ended up telling him that i dun like to talk alot, esp to random ppl. well, i almost added 'like u' to tt sentence. but i figured tt its not so nice.
eloquence: =/
characteristics: likes to show off. thick, very. weird.
sigh. so the conclusion is that he tried too hard, and failed miserably in his mission. hur. now i must more find ways to avoid him in school. or try to get him enlightened, somehow.
its hard to be nice.
now, here's a rough dissection of the caller;
ulterior motive: to impress [by telling me that he read some self-help books, checked the meaning of a certain word and was trying to share his findings.] and to flatter.
reason [caller stated] for calling: just wanna chat. to know me better. he said that after observing me, he found that my personality dun fit the "elite sports person" personality profile. tried to get me to explain that. hello. im not even in the national youth team. could have been and the actual thing are different. and who said that im 'quiet and one who keeps alot to herself'? its just a signal from me to him. like, big and flashing "clear off".
after that, he asked if i chat w ppl on msn. sigh. who doesnt? its just a matter of who is the person in question. so i ended up telling him that i dun like to talk alot, esp to random ppl. well, i almost added 'like u' to tt sentence. but i figured tt its not so nice.
eloquence: =/
characteristics: likes to show off. thick, very. weird.
sigh. so the conclusion is that he tried too hard, and failed miserably in his mission. hur. now i must more find ways to avoid him in school. or try to get him enlightened, somehow.
its hard to be nice.
Sunday, April 02, 2006
hopes and fears.
i had a weird dream ytd. the possibility of it happening in reality is less den zero. but i rmb being really contented in that dream. as if i was happy, all over again.
yet, as reality kicks in and when i rationalise eth. im back to square one. together w all my hopes and fears.
yet, as reality kicks in and when i rationalise eth. im back to square one. together w all my hopes and fears.
Thursday, March 16, 2006
life
yay*
i finished 2 weeks worth of lesson plan. acids and bases.
anyone wants a recap on O'level chem??
lol.
i think im having an overdose of csi. been watching it every night before i sleep. kept having dreams abt being involved in csi. and i dun usually rmb my dreams. oh well, mayb one fine day i'll b wearing one of those "FORENSICS" vast tt Grissom wears while i work.
hahaha.. its a fatter den me hope.
like wad my mum said, singapore is too safe. we dun need so many CSIs ard.
wadeva. its nice daydreaming once in awhile.
i finished 2 weeks worth of lesson plan. acids and bases.
anyone wants a recap on O'level chem??
lol.
i think im having an overdose of csi. been watching it every night before i sleep. kept having dreams abt being involved in csi. and i dun usually rmb my dreams. oh well, mayb one fine day i'll b wearing one of those "FORENSICS" vast tt Grissom wears while i work.
hahaha.. its a fatter den me hope.
like wad my mum said, singapore is too safe. we dun need so many CSIs ard.
wadeva. its nice daydreaming once in awhile.
Tuesday, March 14, 2006
be still my heart
Be Still My Heart - The Postal Service
I was running late for work
So I didn't change my shirt
The evening's drinks left a lingering taste in my mouth
And when I left
You were fast asleep
Tangled in the sheets
And on the bus I could have sworn it was all a dream
And it didn't happen to me
And then I felt the scrapes
From the slippery subway grate.
Oh how you laughed
At my complete lack of grace.
But I could not recall
A more perfect fall
Cause when I looked up into your eyes
It didn't hurt at all.
And I thought, be still my heart
This could be a brand new start, with you.
And it will be clear
If I wake up and you're still here with me in the morning.
And I thought, be still my heart
This could be a brand new start, with you.
And it will be clear
If I wake up and you're still here with me in the morning.
I was running late for work
So I didn't change my shirt
The evening's drinks left a lingering taste in my mouth
And when I left
You were fast asleep
Tangled in the sheets
And on the bus I could have sworn it was all a dream
And it didn't happen to me
And then I felt the scrapes
From the slippery subway grate.
Oh how you laughed
At my complete lack of grace.
But I could not recall
A more perfect fall
Cause when I looked up into your eyes
It didn't hurt at all.
And I thought, be still my heart
This could be a brand new start, with you.
And it will be clear
If I wake up and you're still here with me in the morning.
And I thought, be still my heart
This could be a brand new start, with you.
And it will be clear
If I wake up and you're still here with me in the morning.
Friday, March 03, 2006
wad i hear these days
hah? why like that? haiyo.
ooh. den wad are u planning to do?
well, u can try applying.
oh. okay.
results are not eth, its really abt e person u are.
er, are u bluffing me?
not bad. are u like celebrating somewhere?
sigh. below expectation leh.
its like u'r not up there nor down there.
sigh. i hate results to nowhere. totally.
ooh. den wad are u planning to do?
well, u can try applying.
oh. okay.
results are not eth, its really abt e person u are.
er, are u bluffing me?
not bad. are u like celebrating somewhere?
sigh. below expectation leh.
its like u'r not up there nor down there.
sigh. i hate results to nowhere. totally.
Thursday, March 02, 2006
the girl in the other room
the girl in the other room - diana krall
The girl in the other room
She knows by now
There's something in all of her fears
Now she wears it threadbare
She sits on the floor
The glass pressed tight to the wall
She hears murmurs low
The paper is peeling
Her eyes staring straight at the ceiling
Maybe they're there
Maybe it's nothing at all
As she draws lipstick smears on the wall
The girl in the other room
She powders her face
And stares hard
Into her reflection
The girl in the other room
She stifles a yawn
Adjusting the strap of her gown
She tosses her tresses
Her lover undresses
Turning the last lamp light down
What's that voice we're hearing?
We should be sleeping
Could that be someone who's weeping?
Maybe she's there
Maybe there's nothing to see
It's just a trace of what used to be
The girl in the other room
She darkens her lash
And blushes
She seems to look familiar
The girl in the other room
She knows by now
There's something in all of her fears
Now she wears it threadbare
She sits on the floor
The glass pressed tight to the wall
She hears murmurs low
The paper is peeling
Her eyes staring straight at the ceiling
Maybe they're there
Maybe it's nothing at all
As she draws lipstick smears on the wall
The girl in the other room
She powders her face
And stares hard
Into her reflection
The girl in the other room
She stifles a yawn
Adjusting the strap of her gown
She tosses her tresses
Her lover undresses
Turning the last lamp light down
What's that voice we're hearing?
We should be sleeping
Could that be someone who's weeping?
Maybe she's there
Maybe there's nothing to see
It's just a trace of what used to be
The girl in the other room
She darkens her lash
And blushes
She seems to look familiar
Sunday, February 26, 2006
outside looking in
sigh. results wil b out on wed. wonder how it'l b like. =/
starting work tmr. hope it goes on well. i'm suppose to go thru their common test ppr marking scheme w em. ah well.
im like in e outside looking in mode. hurr.
starting work tmr. hope it goes on well. i'm suppose to go thru their common test ppr marking scheme w em. ah well.
im like in e outside looking in mode. hurr.
Wednesday, February 22, 2006
im a lazy pig..
oh bother! i'm absolutely bored
and yet enjoying this newfound boredom. haha. this sounds totally contradicting. well, i guess it happens when u'r jobless, bf-less and sch-less. its like u get to wake up every morning doing wadeva u fancy. this is not e best part tho. e best part is to indulge in e laziness wo feeling guilty or part of u dreading e consequences. muahaha.
but of cos there'r always 2 sides to eth. stimes i get paranoid abt not having to do ath and worry abt not worrying abt ath. hur. this is so absolutely weird. sigh. mayb i'm just not use to being lazy.
stimes when i get too bored, i'll start imaging all e tiny neurons firing signals in my head telling me tt im so bored tt im doing all tt im doing. haa. tt sounds funny.
ah, mr thomas just told me tt e teacher i'm relieving wants to see me regarding her lessons. great! i have sth to do now..
ugh. overnight coke sucks.
and yet enjoying this newfound boredom. haha. this sounds totally contradicting. well, i guess it happens when u'r jobless, bf-less and sch-less. its like u get to wake up every morning doing wadeva u fancy. this is not e best part tho. e best part is to indulge in e laziness wo feeling guilty or part of u dreading e consequences. muahaha.
but of cos there'r always 2 sides to eth. stimes i get paranoid abt not having to do ath and worry abt not worrying abt ath. hur. this is so absolutely weird. sigh. mayb i'm just not use to being lazy.
stimes when i get too bored, i'll start imaging all e tiny neurons firing signals in my head telling me tt im so bored tt im doing all tt im doing. haa. tt sounds funny.
ah, mr thomas just told me tt e teacher i'm relieving wants to see me regarding her lessons. great! i have sth to do now..
ugh. overnight coke sucks.
Friday, February 17, 2006
take it back
Take It Back – Loquat
I know all you u wouldn’t see
But these neuroses go pretty deep
And the words we use
I have the nicest ones
I know what a jerk I am
And what a pain in the ass you are
I don’t want to drive u up a cliff
So before we get to that
I gotta say sorry I take it back
I’m sure u don’t wanna burn me apart and down
So before we get to that
Could you please just take it back
It looks as though you are cursed
As for being difficult turned to worse
But at times you’ll find
I’ll make it easy on you
I know what a jerk I am
And what a pain in the ass you are
I don’t want to drive u up a cliff so before
So before we get to that I gotta say sorry I take it back
I’m sure u don’t wanna burn me apart and down so before
We get to that could u please just take it back
Listen I heard what you said
You don’t have to repeat it
I'd rather that conversation got totally deleted
I don’t want to drive u up a cliff
So before we get to that I gotta say sorry I take it back
I’m sure you don’t wanna burn me apart and down so before
We get to that could you
Please just take it back
hur. finally manage to figure out e lyrics for this song. tho i bet its loaded w errors. but oh well, since i cant find this lyrics anywhere i gotta make do w this. haa. mayb i shld get their CD online or sth. heeheeeee..
I know all you u wouldn’t see
But these neuroses go pretty deep
And the words we use
I have the nicest ones
I know what a jerk I am
And what a pain in the ass you are
I don’t want to drive u up a cliff
So before we get to that
I gotta say sorry I take it back
I’m sure u don’t wanna burn me apart and down
So before we get to that
Could you please just take it back
It looks as though you are cursed
As for being difficult turned to worse
But at times you’ll find
I’ll make it easy on you
I know what a jerk I am
And what a pain in the ass you are
I don’t want to drive u up a cliff so before
So before we get to that I gotta say sorry I take it back
I’m sure u don’t wanna burn me apart and down so before
We get to that could u please just take it back
Listen I heard what you said
You don’t have to repeat it
I'd rather that conversation got totally deleted
I don’t want to drive u up a cliff
So before we get to that I gotta say sorry I take it back
I’m sure you don’t wanna burn me apart and down so before
We get to that could you
Please just take it back
hur. finally manage to figure out e lyrics for this song. tho i bet its loaded w errors. but oh well, since i cant find this lyrics anywhere i gotta make do w this. haa. mayb i shld get their CD online or sth. heeheeeee..
Sunday, February 12, 2006
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