you should not believe in me

i hate it when my com is all laggy, especially when i'm trying very hard to do my lab report. and that ain't so bad because one can deal with lagginess with more patience. but now, to make matters worse, Word keeps dying on me whenever i try to save my work. brillant! congrats yy!

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i'm damn pissed! ARGHH! the only way to get work done is to go to the computer cluster. =/

office 2008?

hope is something unfounded

i've been too lazy and busy to blog properly. guess it's about time for some updates before anyone thinks that i fell from the face of earth or something.

my lessons this year are a lot more hectic these days and way more interesting than superficial things that we did last year. but with that, it means that the content that we cover are more difficult and comprehensive. it's good when it comes to satisfying curiosity but its bad news when i have to mug for exams. very bad, in fact. but i'm not gonna go into that now. it's not time, yet.

i finally joined the leeds' volleyball team this year. we had our first match with leeds metropolitan university this wednesday. it was a good game, considering we only had 3 formal trainings before the competition. besides, we totally kicked their asses; 3-0, the first set was under 10. :D it's been awhile since i had my shot of adrenaline on court so it really feels quite good. there's a lot more motivation to go for training this year..

although i still miss home, being back in leeds is like going back into part of my life that i left behind last summer. basically, i'm picking up what i left off and continuing with what i have here. and that's a lot more enjoyable and less scary than starting from scratch (like last year).

time really tells, so just sit back, relax and let it unfold before your eyes.

where you end

Where You End - Moby

Some things fall apart
Some things make you whole
Some things that you find
Are beyond your control

I love you and you're beautiful
You write your own songs
What if the right part of leaving
Turned out to be wrong

If I could kiss you now
Oh I'd kiss you now again and again
'Til I don't know where I begin
And where you end

Thought I fell in love the other day
With an old friend of mine
I was running kisses
Down every inch of her spine

We had the roof down
The sun came shining in
The black fact is
That I was thinking of you

If I could kiss you now
Oh I'd kiss you now again and again
'Til I don't know where I begin
And where you end

I slept in the sun the other day
I thought I was fine
Everything seemed perfect
'Til I had you on my mind

I tried to love you
I did all that I could
I wish that the bad now
Had finally turned into good

If I could kiss you now
Oh I'd kiss you now again and again
'Til I don't know where I begin
And where you end

If I could kiss you now
If I could kiss you now
If I could kiss you now

Oh where you end
Is where I begin

Oh where you end
Oh where you end
Oh where you end

lost in coffee rings and fingerprints

i have this deep sense of foreboding that time is running out.

indeed, it's already august. this means that i'll be heading back to leeds in about a month's time (i'm flying back on the 20th of september). well, going back to leeds has it's perks - the freedom, pursuit of my degree, travelling etc. yet, i know that i'll definitely miss home and be missing out on the lives of my friends and family. sigh. oh well, i made that choice. i'll have to do what i have to do..


on a lighter note, HAPPY 20TH BIRTHDAY ZEEWAI!! ((:
i'm really glad to have a friend like you.

i hear in my mind, all these voices

i like endorphin, the tiny little molecules that work wonders on my brain. they make me happy, feel good about myself and make me go an extra mile, literally, on the treadmill. sadly, i don't get endorphin charged too often. but just as well, lest i get tolerant to its effects.

so, when will my i get my next shot?

regina spektor - Fidelity

And suppose I never met you
Suppose we never fell in love
Suppose I never ever let you kiss me so sweet and so soft
Suppose I never ever saw you
Suppose we never ever called
Suppose I kept on singing love songs just to break my own fall
Just to break my fall
Just to break my fall
Break my fall
Break my fall..

i'm gonna find other you

i like coffee, and i think i'm kind of addicted to it.

i've been having withdrawal symptom, a slight headache, all afternoon because i didn't have my usual dose this morning. its bad, i know. i suspect know it'll get worse if i were to continue to indulge. but i can't imagine my mornings without coffee. not only that it smells good, it perks me up too.

nonetheless, i know that i can do without coffee. just i little more effort and i can do without it. then again, there is just this part of me that's telling me that i might just want this slight addiction, to indulge in something that i shouldn't.

oh well, maybe i should just let it go....

lets waste time

i love talking to ying rong. our conversations just flow as naturally as it can be, without any awkward slience or inhibitions. our ideas may be conflicting at times, but we can always communicate with ease. there's no one in the world who can replace her in my heart. although she, like anyone else, has a lot of flaws, i'll always love her.

with all my heart. ((:

don't make me think before i speak

exams in 4 days, 12 to end of exams, 18 to home.

it's been almost 9 months since i've breathed the hot and humid singapore air. i know i will definitely complain about the heat when i get back, but that would never deter me from going home. i really can't wait for the 4 long awaited months of holiday! there are so many things i'd love (and have) to do when i'm back. i even compiled a to-do list from playing with lizzie lizard to returning library fines (60 bucks!!!!!). oh, and with some luck, i might be able to work as an intern in A*star just to get a feel of research. i really have to thank Zuthur for that; he helped me pull some strings. ((:

i really can't wait for exams to be over and the day when i can finally fly home. but i know from experience that on the day itself, the excitement would not be like what i anticipated. but oh well, i just wanna be home.

hate this feeling of disappointment.

quit you

i'm in quite an irritable mood now. mainly pissed with myself, as usual.


argh.


on a lighter note, my poster is almost done. hurray! i have to write out my speech soon though. i only have the main points done. i dun fancy presentations, even when there will only be 3 assessors present. ah well, i should go on and finish my revision for tmr's data analysis exam.


i really can't wait to go home. getting tired of leeds.





i thought my problems would just dissipate
and all my pain would be in yesterday...

unsaid

Unsaid - The Fray

Not that you're the one
Not to say I'm right
Not to say today
And not to say a thing tonight

But suffice it to say
We're leaving things unsaid
We sing ourselves to sleep
Watching the day lie down instead

And we are leaving some things unsaid
And we are breathing deeper instead

We're both pretty sure
Neither one can tell
We seem difficult
What we got is hard as hell

A hundred thousand words could not quite explain
So I walk you to your car
And we can talk it out in the rain

And we are leaving some things unsaid
And we are breathing deeper instead
And we are leaving some things unsaid

I can sing myself to sleep
No more

Not that you're the one
Not to say I'm right
Not to say today
And not to say a thing tonight

Coffee and Cigarettes

hur. what a heart wrenching song.

but i like. =/

do you have a suggestion?

people are coming back from easter break,
cars are filling up the parking lots.

goodbye tranquility.

manual counter

my 3-in-1 counter.

cant wait!

i need you so much closer

i've been too lazy to blog for the past few weeks. getting way too comfortable with my newfound source of free music and endless junk food [think chocolate fondue and crunchy nut] from morrisons. what's new?

anyway, some updates. i'll be heading back to sg on the 30th may, which means it's only about 46 more days to go till i can finally go home. [i managed to reschedule my flight 'cause exam ends on the 24th.]

but firstly, i'll have to tackle my first major exam here in 32 days' time. =/

tick tock, tick tock. time is running out.

Tristan Prettyman - Shy That Way w/J Mraz - Live At Lestat's

i love the performance and song.

someday, somehow, in some town, perhaps?

a day, wasted

i know i should probably do something constructive instead of blog surfing, friendster-ing [yes, i know. im outdated. people are facebooking now and im still stuck w friendster.], watching house and just simply indulging in my own laziness.

but well, notice i said probably.

the excessive thoughts on my mind are making me really restless and dissatisfied. but the real trouble is that i can't let them out of my mind. there seem to be a gap between thoughts in my mind and my ability to express them. most of the time, they don't come out. and even if they do, it's just not rightly conveyed. so they're just trapped inside my mind, waiting in vain for liberation.

i hate the feeling of inadequacy.

updates, like finally

easter break will start on this friday!! hurray! no more lab reports, essays, 9 am lectures, practicals, whatever for the next month! =D and i'll be travelling with the usual people again on the third week. muahaha. ((:

by the way, if you don't already know, i'll be going back for summer holidays on the 6th of june! i really can't wait. it's been awhile...... )):

hmm. maybe i'll write up a to-do list for easter and summer hols for motivation when i'm done with my essay and lab report (which are due tmr). =/

Cosy in The Rocket

one of those songs that i just can't seem to get it out of my system.. oh yeah, ignore the slide show. enjoy the song!

tolerance

my friends usually tell me that i have almost no temper and (relatively) high tolerance for stuff like noise and irritating people. but i don't think that's strictly true; i only have a high threshold for people whom i love and care for. i'll always try my very best to accept the imperfections in my friends, that's the least that i can do for them. and it's not like i'm perfect. i know that i'm irritating (at times only, i hope) and definitely far from perfection. so i guess what's important is not who is more irritating or irritated. it's more about being truthful and accepting, not putting up with, the flaws.

what do you think?