christmas

merry christmas! ((((:

ying rong's

here you go. (:

i miss hanging out with you a lot a lot.

love you babe!

check this out if you have nothing better to do. its quite fun. found it when i was doing research for my lab report some time back.



some good things are worth waiting for. but what if you have to spend a lifetime waiting?

my christmas break so far

hmm, time for a li'l update. im having my december break now. i'm enjoying it. =D i love the free and easy feeling.

i can

sleep at 3 am and wake u at noon, thinking that it's only 10 am.
do nothing but design my blogskin the entire day without feeling guilty
have drinks at some random bar and drink to my hearts' content w a handful of friends
talk about philosophers and afterlife at 2 am in the morning after getting a bit high
have flames (leeds equivalent of KFC, only that it's better) at 230 am
go supermaket-ing, buy 2 weeks' worth of crap and cook everyday
do some work and feel really hardworking for starting early on my stupid essay

well, basically thats what i've doing for the past week. quite shiok. makes coming to leeds to study and staying for christmas worth it. =D

as for my Cologne trip last weekend, it was terrific!

quality company, beautiful scenery, refreshing beer and great weather. what more can one ask for a holiday except for time to freeze right at the moment for you to savour? :) Cologne is really a beautiful, beautiful city. the cathedral alone blows you away. too bad my old camera sucks. i swear that the shutter speed is like 3 whole seconds. its worse when it's on night mode. it's terrible. cos the night scene is so darn gorgeous.

here u go, pictures taken in during the trip.


river rhine [dunno the bridge's name]


Cologne Cathedral [600 years of history, so must touch and kiss according to Zuthur]


one of the food stalls in the german christmas market. the food is fantastic! [except for the weird giam cai thing w soup]


german train. it's like FOC cos the tickets machine is inside the train cabin.


shopping on a saturday =/


ice cream, anybody?


me, Zuthur and Sarah. Cologne beer is so darn good! (:


river rhine. chocolate museum on the RHS.


taken during the long dreary bus ride back to London. beautiful isn't it?


Sarah, me. Leeds train station. sulking, cos i f*cking forgot the train tickets! missed our train and had to spend another 50 quid on our new ticket. yes, go ahead and punch me. ):


heading to Hogwarts?


pretty self explanatory huh?


London underground


London. what square is it called again?


yours truly, on train back to Leeds from London. we didnt miss it this time round.

well, this pretty much sums up my holiday trip to London and Cologne. i'll be heading for London again on the 27th. POST-CHRISTMAS SALES! we're gonna do so much junk there! have duck rice, pizza, cha guay tiao, kebab, watch musicals [phatom of the opera, billy elliot, nutcracker, evita.... ..], put flowers on karl marx's grave(?), RETAIL THERAPY etc etc etc. ahhh. heehee. quite looking forward to it. =D hopefully Ted Baker will have a mega sale on this trench coat.

well, i guess staying in Leeds for Christmas isn't such a bad choice after all. i'm so glad that i have some very good company. (((:

It's like ten thousand spoons when all you need is a knife.

BREATHE IN

Breathe In - Frou Frou

I read you and God I'm good at it I'm so spot on
Chord shapes in air go press that dissonance if you dare
And you breathing in finesse an innocent
From her partying

And I'm high enough from all the waiting
To ride a wave on your inhaling
And I'm high enough from all the waiting
To ride a wave on your inhaling
'Cause I love you no?
Can't help but love, you know...

What part of no don't you understand I've told you before
To just get off my case this isn't happening stop this now
And I where was I? I have to be somewhere
Now where did I put it?

And I'm high enough from all the waiting
To ride a wave on your inhaling
And I'm high enough from all the waiting
To ride a wave on your inhaling
'Cause I love you no?
Can't help but love you, no...

Is this it, is this it, is this it?

Yes hello we're back and we're taking calls
Now what was the question?

And I'm high enough from all the waiting
To ride a wave on your inhaling
And I'm high enough from all the waiting
To ride a wave on your inhaling
'Cause I love you no?
Can't help but love you, no...

raaaaaainn

i dun like the cold rain, doing lab report and people who think that they are princesses. but i like the feeling of after exams, the start of term breaks and good company. ((:

talking about striking a balance. haha.

ah well, im going for an opera in a bit. it's called peter grimes. hope i wouldn't fall asleep. i just wanna go for the experience. the theater looks really glam with the lights and red carpet from outside. wonder what is it like inside.

more later, if im not too lazy. heee. im freeeeee from studying for the next 4 weeks! woohoo.

shit, lab report. ugh. =/

title and registration

Title and Registration - Death Cab for Cutie

The glove compartment is inaccurately named
And everybody knows it
So I'm proposing a swift orderly change

'Cause behind its door there's nothing to keep my fingers warm
And all I find are souvenirs from better times
Before the gleam of your tail lights fading east
To find yourself a better life.

I was searching for some legal document
As the rain beat down on the hood
When I stumbled upon pictures I tried to forget
And that's how this idea was drilled into my head
'Cause it's too important
To stay the way it's been

But there's no blame for how our love did slowly fade,
And now that it's gone, it's like it wasn't there at all
And here I rest where disappointment and regret collide
Lying awake at night

And there's no blame for how our love did slowly fade
And now that it's gone, it's like it wasn't there at all
And here I rest where disappointment and regret collide
Lying awake at night, up all night
When I'm lying awake at night

nice, nice, nice. im hooked to this song.
well, i should be sleeping now. shit. im getting hungry. man, i dun want the sarah syndrome! =X
LOL*

let go, so let go

i've been receiving complaints about my stagnant blog. in case you've been wondering, i'm still very much alive. its just that i've been busy mugging, or trying to mug, my ass off these days. exams sucks. no doubt about it. it's universal; from singapore to UK to wherever. i think it's a singaporean thing. cos even when there's lack of drilling here for me to study very very hard, i'm still doing so. possibly even more so. i guess that's a nice change. i dunno. haha.

its's been more than 2 months sonce i left home, or reached here so to speak. there have been quite a few emotional roller coaster rides. but i'm gradually settling in to the life here. establishing my routines, building familiarity and transcending to another level of independence. this independence is not something you can develop at home; not that you cant learn to be independent when you're in the place where you grew up. it's just a differernt.

the independence here is like a no string attached life. you are truly on your own, with no moral obligations to fulfil and people to please. here, it's more like 'me, myself and i'. you exist as a single entity, with no worries or cares for the world. everything is more or less your own time own target. you do what you like and like what you do. it's refreshing, liberating and.... sad. cos after awhile you get tired of the space and pirvacy. you begin to think that you are havng too much space that it becomes emptiness.

ah well, i guess thats life. you cant have everything. i'm not depressed or suicidal, thats just how i feel about it.

but i've made a couple of good friends here, fortunately. and im very thankful to have em ard. ((:

oooh. i'll be going to york this sat for shopping. yeah, i know i have exams. but i have my mum's permission. 'as long as you can finish whatever you need to study for, theres no reason to be cooped up at home.' my mum's words [in chinese of cos]. hahah.

okay, enough time spent on my random thoughts. time for some work to be done. =/

weekend

i should be doing some work now. i've been procrastinating since i got back from town. it seem like i just cant concentrate on my textbook. i keep wondering to spme other places in my mind. haha. i think i'm still in the post-assessment mood. bleah. i should steer myself back very soon.

went shopping with Sarah and Sherrie today. okay, what's new right? i've been going to shopping almost every saturday for the past month. i usually come back empty handed with a full stomach. but today is a different story. =D i spent a total of 57 quid on a pair of jeans from Zara and a a water proof "snowman" jacket from Gap. heeheehee.. they are so nice and value for money. the Gap jacket is on sale. it was 58 quid. but there is a reduction of 20 quid. so its about 30% off. heh. i love getting good buys. call me cheapo. i dun really care. heehee.

sigh. i should do my revision early. will upload some pics soon. my d-cam's batteries finally arrived. =D

thank you erer! you really put in quite alot of effort to pack the stuff. haha. love you! -muacks-

the nearness of you

The Nearness of You - Norah Jones

Its not the pale moon that excites me
That thrills and delights me,
Oh no
Its just the nearness of you

It isnt your sweet conversation
That brings this sensation,
Oh no
Its just the nearness of you

When youre in my arms
And I feel you so close to me
All my wildest dreams
Came true

I need no soft lights to enchant me
If youll only grant me
The right
To hold you ever so tight
And to feel in the night
The nearness of you.

halloween

halloween was damn fun! i went clubbing with the Singsoc people at Oceana. this time its actually enjoyable, not awkward.

basically, we just drank, danced and bitch about ugly/sluttish people. it was really enjoyable. esp when we bitch. =X i even told my mum that i went clubbing. hah. and she cldn even recognise me on the picture! i dressed up as a "vampire" but i dun think i look like one. cos im too cute. haha. no la. its cos i didnt have blood/white powder. and im not sure if i really want over do it, resulting the not quite like vampire look.


clement, yun jing, me, sarah and zuthur


sarah, me, edna and asha


clockwise: zuthur, sarah, yun jing, asha and yours truly. on the dance floor.

(:

ooh. and i got a new phone (and number)! heh. its the Samsung D900, red version. hee. its so gorgeous and slim! =D

YAY! i finally got a phone!!

watched A Good Year with Sarah just now. it has quite a nice theme. but very predictable. initially we wanted to catch Marie Antoinette. but there is only one timing at 9:45 pm. so we decided to watch a good year instead. that's like my first time watching a movie in Leeds. talking about being ulufied. =/ haha. it feels almost like i was back in PS catching a movie on a weekend. but its more pricey to watch movie here. its about 5 quid. i guess once in awhile wldn hurt right? =D

during my christmas break, i wouldn't be going back to singapore; its more rational to do so. 'cause my break is only 4 weeks. it'll take me 2 weeks to get over the jet-lags. so i might as well stay here and conquer UK. lol. mayb not. but i'll be going to london post christmas and to germany at the beginning of my break. i still have no idea where exactly i'll be going in between the 2 trips. but i guess i'll be going to the south. its warmer there. so its time to read my UK guide book and start booking train tickets. cheaper that way. heh.

i just hope tt i wldn get too homesick...

oh. i'll be going to nottingham next weekend for the nottingham games. wanna guess which sport i'll be participating in? no prize for those who guessed correctly though. for the benefit of those who have no idea, i'll be playing for the massoc (malaysian and singaporean society) volleyball team. hope that it'll be fun. never been to nottingham before and have never played in any of the inter-university games before. went for their training today. apparently, they think that im quite good. but that's just because half of them dun know how to play.. haa.

its winter now. cos the whole of UK is follwing the DST daylight saving time. so the time difference is 8 hours. which means the sun sets even earlier in Leeds. =/

so gloomy. ):

pandora's box.

to all music lovers,

do check out pandora, if you haven't already done so.

(: cheers!

Swingset Chain

Swingset Chain - Loquat

There's a playground that we used to run on
The penny-drop that broke her arm
The monkey bars that you fell from
The swingset chain that stuck with my tongue
It's thirty below and we're far gone
If you plant yourself here I wouldn't miss you for long
But then comes the day when you leave town
I'm back to the way I was when you weren't around

If you want to know what that was like
I'll tell you first, it was way too quiet
It rained a hundred nineteen days of the year
I spent my time falling down the stairs
I know I can't tie you to a leash
But something tells me you'd go further than Greece
And then I'll have to figure out what to do
I'm kind of afraid I'm co-dependent on you

I'm freaking out that we've started breaking down
Before momentum picked up
Now all these doors are locked
The trees trick you 'cause they're always standing still
If time was really racing by
You could see it when you drive

There's a rooftop deck where we still hang out
A couple of bars where we're not allowed
The roller-skates that threw you on your face
The park on the hill which was our only space
The fog is fast and it rolls right in
About the time I struck my first fifth of gin
I really don't mean to complain too much
But this is turning me into quite the lush

I'm freaking out that we're running out of time
But to do what?
Should I stop and think of that?
Is there something I could do to slow it down?
Live in a day for once
Instead of watch it screaming by

You're a dandelion seed
That flies through the air
And lands randomly
Then disappears

I'm freaking out that we've started breaking down
Before momentum picked up
Now all these doors are locked
The trees trick you 'cause they're always standing still
If time was really racing by
You could see it when you drive

choice

get busy living, or get busy dying.

the choice is yours. and yours only.

it started when we were younger and u were mine

time kinda flies this week; its gonna be friday again tmr. i'll be going to a flea market out of town on sunday just to look around albeit i have an upcoming assesment on monday. hur. please don't nag me. i really need to get outta leeds, i haven't really travelled anywhere since i got here. besides, i have assessments like every week. like next next monday, im gonna have my final assessment which contributes to 40% of my overall module mark. yes, im gonna mug my ass off for that assessment.

oh! i finally got my long awaited parcel with my seafood inside.


they're dried and tiny though........

go ahead and laugh. but when you're abroad on your own, anything goes. esp when it tastes like home and is not bland.

im sure u guys know where this originated from. my mum had been nagging at me all week to check with the site office if her precious "dye" food has arrived. so here u go mummy. its right beside me now. and im gonna have some of it tonight. =D

one more thing, i had a haircut cum mini makeover yesterday, courtesy of Sherrie. i've got quite mixed reactions to my new hairstyle. so i'll let you decide for yourself...


20 mins before my haircut


TADA!



miss pseudo-cleopatra

haha. i just wanted a change. anyway, fringes grow real quickly. and i think its quite nice. hohoh.

THANKS SHERRIE! :)

as for my "makeover", Sherrie just picked up my makeup and painted my face. haha. then, she suggested that i change into something nicer and take pictures. basically, we spent almost the entire afternoon being vain. i took quite a lot of pictures which im not gonna post em here. haha. im not narcissistic or anything. =D well, okay. maybe just one la. cant waste the afternoon's effort right?


(:

i miss my phone. the pictures' quality suck.

ah well, i have to finish up my powerpoint on plagiarism and submit it by today. =/
ciao!

=/

its been a pretty hectic week. from school to shopping. suddenly its sunday again, and the routine is starting all over again. im having a bit of pre-monday blues. just that this one that im feeling now is slightly different; it has a dash of homesickness. nothing that i cant handle. just cant help but to miss home. from the luxury of having real soup to the random phone calls to/from friends. its just so faraway now.

its gonna be awhile before i get back to those things again. and i wonder if thye're gonna change in my absence. like morphing into something else that i cant recognise..

okay, enough lamenting. i have to be brave. i chose this path. and im gonna stick to it and make the best out of the stint, like how my bro-in-law put it. ((:

mugged.

if u dont already know,

I WAS MUGGED YTD!

):

i was on my way to meet my cousin for dinner at a small restaurant nearby. den 3 guys materialised from behind, snatched my hangbag and took off to the dark residential area. it was only half past eight can. =/

so i lost my favourite Gap hangbag, my motorola V3i, my favourite Guess wallet and my keys to my hostel in that split second. SIGH. inside my wallet i have my student ID, NRIC [yes, i know i shouldn have brought it along], my new bank card and some other stuff. some things can be replaced. but some cant be. ):

on the other hand, i still have my iPod with me. cos i put it into my jacket pocket instead of my bag. thats like the most expensive thing i have w me tt time. plus, i wasnt physically hurt. just shocked and truamatised. :(

this totally sucks. i'll have to bug the accommodation office for new keys, bank for new card and police for the official statement to claim my insurance. but i have to wait till monday cos they dont work on weekends. =/

but well, i wanna say a big THANK YOU to people who have shown concern and support to me. ((: it really made a difference.

the body

The most important things are the hardest things to say. They are the things you get ashamed of, because words diminish them - words shrink things that seemed limitless when they were in your head to no more than living size when they're brought out. But it's more than that, isn't it? The most important things lie too close to wherever your secret heart is buried, like landmarks to a treasure your enemies would love to steal away. And you may make revelations that cost you dearly only to have people look at you in a funny way, not understanding what you've said at all, or why you thought it was so important that you almost cried while you were saying it. That's the worst I think. When the secret stays locked within not for the want of a teller but for the want of an understanding ear.

in case you're wondering, i've been reading Stephen King's The Shawshank Redemption. i'll never ever write something like that. its so simple yet so close to heart.

time for my afternoon lecture.

peel me a grape

its been a pretty hectic week. lesson started proper and there are some order restored! ((: not that i love routines. its just feeling lost in an unfamiliar place kinda sucks. what we're doing during lectures is more or less a recap of A level stuff. which isnt too bad - i've given most of the things back to miss mani already. =X so much for mugging for A's. or mayb thats the reason behind my C for bio. hmm, let's not go into that. no one likes to read about lamentations right?

anyway, i love biology, esp human physiology. i'm so glad that i didnt settle for any random course back in Singapore. i might need time and energy to adapt to Leeds, selfishly burn a big hole on my parents' pocket and leave all my loved ones behind. but i know that this is something that i want to do for life. tho i dun know what's gonna happen in the future.

OH! i went for a little retail therapy and grocery shopping today with Sherrie. i spent like 30 pounds. =X and i got...


my dream boots! i love the colour, material, heel, height, length and price. its perfect! [12 pounds]


green bag! [4 pounds]

and one week worth of fruits and meat. well, my new bag and boots are probably made in China. but who cares. they're nice and of quite good quality. muahaha. i love getting good buys!!

and... its great to have a nice shopping partner. ((:

well, so far everything's quite alright. hope this will continue for awhile longer before the novelty of living alone wears off and homesickness starts kicking in. =/

the cold dreary winter is looming....

my room

MY ROOM!


my bed.


my table. [oops is that my sports bra?]


my v tiny closet. =/


window. nice. thats like my favourite part of my room.


view outside my window.


free poster. =D


my FULL LENGTH mirror. hee.


im a little lazy to type. thus the pictures. :)) enjoy! school's starting tmr. wil update then. wish me luck!

induction week

its been a week since i've reached Leeds. i've been really busy.

the first thing that i did when i got over the jet-lag was to visit the city centre. my cousin actually took 3 days' worth of leave to bring me around the uni and the city centre. :) hoho. i dunno what i wld've done wo him showing me the place. i really need to get accustomed to walking alot. my hostel is 10 mins away from sch and 20 mins away from the city centre by foot. so theres really no point taking public transport when there is a traffic light every 50 meters and the bus frequency is like 10 mins.

then, it was the talks about my course, briefing about my lectures and IT facilities in sch. it was boring yet informative. but the induction week is more or less over now. and the real lectures and tutorials are kicking in next monday. hope it'll be better then the talks.

oh yes, and my uni registration. it was giving me quite a headache till this afternoon. thank goodness its been settled already. there was some miscommunication between my mum and i. i told her to transfer my tuition fees to the uni's barclay a/c straight. but she thought it my was a/c that i was talking about and sent extra 3000 pounds there. but now, eth's good. the sch got the money and will send back the extra money tranferred. so i dun have to chase the sch for my 3000 pounds.

i guess, this is part of settling down and really integrating into the Leeds community. i really do hope i can find a place for myself in this lovely city. i should really take some time off to take pics of this place and upload it. :)

okay, its 6:46pm now. time for dinner. =D

hello world.

HELLO HELLO.

i just reached Leeds!

the weather here is so nice. it has the kind of pleasant chilly feel which is a nice change from singapore. =D but my cousin warned me that today is actually one of the rare days where its hotter den usual. and in 2 months' time, i'll be missing the sunny Singapore.

anyway, im currently at my cousin's place. just woke up from a short nap, considering how much sleep/time i lost ytd during the flight. its like 14 freaking hours. =/ by the way, if you'r wondering what's the time difference, Leeds is 7 hours behind Singapore. for now. it'll be 8 when its winter. anyone knows why? do enlighten me. :)

oh, before i forget, i really gotta thank all my beloved friends who sent me off at the airport ytd. :)) it means so much to me. and for those who couldn make it. dun worry, i'll still love you guys. haha.

okay, i'll update more later. i really need my beauty sleep cos a headache is on its way.. :(

countdown.

6 days. =/

funny pink shoes.

went shopping with my mum a couple of days back at paragon. bought a pair of shoes from novo. hee. i think i really like weird stuff. i would've loved it more if its LIME GREEN tho.


:)

oh, i finally cleared up abt 60% of the mess on my table. i haven seen the table top in months. but now i can actually use my laptop on my table. great improvement huh? :)


hur. whatever happened to the sunny sun when i want to sun tan? =/

The Blower's Daughter

And so it is
Just like you said it would be
Life goes easy on me
Most of the time
And so it is
The shorter story
No love, no glory
No hero in her sky

I can't take my eyes off of you
I can't take my eyes off of you
I can't take my eyes off of you
I can't take my eyes off of you
I can't take my eyes off of you
I can't take my eyes...

And so it is
Just like you said it should be
We'll both forget the breeze
Most of the time
And so it is
The colder water
The blower's daughter
The pupil in denial

I can't take my eyes off of you
I can't take my eyes off of you
I can't take my eyes off of you
I can't take my eyes off of you
I can't take my eyes off of you
I can't take my eyes...

Did I say that I love you?
Did I say that I want to
Leave it all behind?

I can't take my mind off of you
I can't take my mind off of you...
I can't take my mind off of you
I can't take my mind off of you
I can't take my mind off of you
I can't take my mind...
My mind...my mind...
'Til I find somebody new

heard this today at Fish and Co, glasshouse.
now i cant take this song off my mind..

i want the luxury of feeling nostalgic back.

oh, who likes wine, smoked cheese, parma ham, pasta etc? :)

visa woes

Life has quite a funny way of making one busy.
just as i thought everything is settled for my departure for Leeds, i got a refusal for my visa application. reason being: insufficient evidence of funding. in short, they think im broke. my dad, being really typical of him, isn't really accommodating when it comes showing his bank statements. inconvenient, he said. but its really the same old trust issue that i don't really want to go into. its mouldy, pointless and completely exasperating. sometimes, i really wonder how what my dad is thinking about, and how my mum tolerated that shit for 2 decades.

in the end, something as trival as providing bank statements got really complicated and pissifying. its hard to believe how much, or rather, how little trust i get from my dad. its really insulting and degrading.

sigh. so after some scoldings, fights and unneccessary tears, i finally got what is needed. plus more than i bargained for; things that i don't really wanna know.

for now, i just hope that i don't have to delay my flight and miss orientation or even lessons. 'cause re-application takes 2-3 weeks. time's really running out.

the truth will set you free?
i guess its really a matter of perspective.

sleepless

pensive and apprehensive.

sigh. 25 days.

sickness

sigh. been down w a flu and bad sore throat for the past 2 days. this translates to more lazing and sleeping at home. haha. im such a pig. i just cant help it.

i'll be leaving in abt 4 weeks' time.. i have absolutely no idea how well i can adapt to the life at Leeds. hur. so many questions wo answers. made some friends at the pre-departure seminar. and they r just as apprehensive as i am. :(
pre-departure blues. =/

anyway, clubbing tmr. hope it'll be fun. =D

bored.

hur. this sucks. im like at home everyday.. my mum doesnt want me to work anymore cos i'll be going off soon. =( everyone's busy with sch and stuff now except for me. sigh. talking abt no life. =/

ah well, i just booked my air ticket last night. i'll be flying on the 14th of sept. i hope i wldn b reduced to holding clear plastic bags when i get on the plane. its quite scary wads happening. like all the terrorists' bombings and attempts to blow up innocent lives in uk. hurr. wad if i get blown up to bits.. ewww.

Well life has a funny way of sneaking up on you
When you think everything's okay and everything's going right
And life has a funny way of helping you out when
You think everything's gone wrong and everything blows up
In your face

ironic - alanis morissette

linger.

If you, if you could return
Dont let it burn, dont let it fade
Im sure Im not being rude
But its just your attitude
Its tearing me apart
Its ruining everything
And I swore, I swore I would be true
And honey so did you
So why were you holding her hand
Is that the way we stand
Were you lying all the time
Was it just a game to you

But Im in so deep
You know Im such a fool for you
You got me wrapped around your finger
Do you have to let it linger
Do you have to, do you have to
Do you have to let it linger

Oh, I thought the world of you
I thought nothing could go wrong
But I was wrong
I was wrong
If you, if you could get by
Trying not to lie
Things wouldnt be so confused
And I wouldnt feel so used
But you always really knew
I just wanna be with you

And Im in so deep
You know Im such a fool for you
You got me wrapped around your finger
Do you have to let it linger
Do you have to. do you have to
Do you have to let it linger

And Im in so deep
You know Im such a fool for you
You got me wrapped around your finger
Do you have to let it linger
Do you have to, do you have to
Do you have to let it linger

You know Im such a fool for you
You got me wrapped around your finger
Do you have to let it linger
Do you have to, do you have to
Do you have to let it linger


sigh.

new skin.

heh. im bored. hence the new blogskin.

the pic is taken by my chinese teacher. [he's teaching one of the modules for my part-time chinese course.] he's really proud of it. kept showing us during lesson. he's so keen on sharing his masterpiece that i decided to use it as my blogskin. his enthusiasm is rather contagious. haha. imagine a 60 yr old grandpa showing off his beloved picture. its kinda funny.

some ppl r just plain rude and stuck up. i cant stand it. cant u call back later, bitch.

-breathes-

right. i shld read my accommodation contract, pick up my passport photos and do my cl assi. hur, my second sis went off for a blue sky holiday on some island.
i want to go too.

slackarian.

hur. i've been at home packing my room. cos i'll be going away for quite a substantial period of time. cant leave my mess at home collecting dust right? but all my cupboards/selves/drawers/table are so bursting w things that i cant possibly clear eth at one shot. =/ so i started with my dressing area, then my selves. im planning to start w my table soon. its like overflowing w ALL my stuff. yes, im not the neatest person ard. but my mess is organised mess okay. [ahaha, oxymoron] i know exactly where all my things are, well almost.


during the midst of clearing up old books/files/letters etc is actually quite enjoyable. alot of fond memories came back to me. esp when I was looking thru' letters. its so funny, like taking a ride back in time. when I was 17, 15, 12, 10, 5 wadeva. i really saw how much i've grown, or how childish i was. of cos there are some v unglam pics that i dun really wan ppl to see now [cos of its laughter-inducing factor]. hahah. i was really really fat then. like fat fat. not how girls complain abt their non-existence kind of fat. lol.


these memories will always be part of me. like the friends i've made, the things we did together, for each other will always stay w me. cos without em, i am nothing but an empty shell [w fats and long bones only].


ah, i wonder how it would be like if i go thru' my stuff again 10 years later.

blessed

ytd, i went to town w tiff to buy PILLOWS! ahaha. and the auntie selling pillows at taka actually reccommended a 66 bucks pillow. -_-" hur. do i look like i'll spend waste 66 bucks on a pillow? mayb i look like such a pig that she thinks that i'll buy it. lol. anyway, after tiff decided which pillow to buy, we ran into alicia! haa. and we stood there for like half an hr just to chat and decide when to meet up. but we had to leave cos we'r running late and cia has to work.


i spent abt 100 bucks at true colours. =/ shit. i think im getting tiffany-disease - spending too much. hope i get my pay soon. and the products from true colours had better work.


after that, i went to the pre-departure talk organised by British Council at Pan-Pacific Hotel. i was severely late. but the good thing is i've been reading useful websites on appying visa, booking air tickets and accommodation. so i didnt miss out much. anyway, i visited the U of Leeds booth set up by the singapore society at leeds uni. i ended up standing in front of the booth and chatted w the president of the society like we've known each other for a long time. haha. i suspect he's a caucasian-indian mix. tho he's not v good-looking, but i think he's really cute. -grins- muahahah. =X im really looking forward to e other pre-departure seminar by U of Leeds next sat. heeheee.


my dad got me a new phone for my belated bday pwes. hee. its the red motorola v3i. its so pretty! =D initially, i wanted the D&G limited edition v3i. but after much consideration, i decided to get the normal red one instead. cos UK isnt really the safest place on earth. i dun really want my phone stolen/getting mugged cos of a flashy phone. plus, its abt 200 bucks cheaper. like my younger sis said, i can get another decent phone w that amount of money.


oh, and i upgraded its meomory size to 1GB. muahahaha. so that next time when i travel ard europe, i wldn have to start deleting pics/video/music in my phone. heeheeheee. i actually promised my mum that i'll take pics/videos of myself on a daily basis and email em to her when im at leeds. talking abt narcissism. must learn from sean. hahah.


OOOH! my sis and bro-in-law got me a 30GB ipod!! =D its a pre-departure pwes from em. heehee. i feel so loved. hahaha. yay* fwaahhh. now my mp3 wldn be "puked" out by my MacBook.


aah, i feel so pampered and blessed. =D

im so loved.. .. =D

first of all i just wanna say

THANK YOU!!

to my dear friends who came [mayb i shld say sneaked?] to my house ytd for my bday surprise. hee. thank you for making me feel loved. =D
sorry i let u guys waited for such a longlong time. i really had absolutely NO idea tt u guys r coming. heee.
anyway, thanks again. love u all. -hugs-


ah, gtg. i have to work. =/ ugh.

toiletries

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just to make sure tt i remember the spelling of TOILETRIES so that somebody cant laugh at me again. well, at least when it comes to the spelling of TOILETRIES.
by the way, the 100 bucks on toiletries is FOR HALF A YEAR'S SUPPLY. cos my aunt told my mum who in turn told me that i shld stock up b4 i go Leeds. cos its cheaper here. and im actually trying to save money okay.

but i had to lug eth[6/7kg] home myself cos my mum's not free to fetch me home. i got like red marks all over my arm cos of my shampoo and stuff. i was so hoping tt on one will see me struggling. den, i ran into one of my mum's ex-student. he was nice enough to help me carry half my load on tt loooong looong stretch of road. i think he is quite cute. and he is studying in AJ yr 2. my dear AJ juniors. do look out for him. =X

but he just had to tell me tt he saw me struggling from far. how unglam.



i could tell from the minute i woke tt its gonna be a lonely lonely lonely lonely daaayy.

dilemma

every ship needs a lighthouse once in awhile. even if its a mirage.
but u ask yourself, 'why would u rather be deceived?'

sigh.

hong kong trip

ah, its been a really long time since i blogged. so for those who haven got the news that im going away in sept to Leeds. yup, i'll be leaving in early sept to study biomedical science at University of Leeds.
i guess this isnt too surprising. cos i didnt exactly do well. and the course that i wanna do (biomed) is quite popular in singapore.
actually, im quite excited abt going Leeds. but apprehensive at the same time. cos u can read all abt leeds. but the actual experience is different for everyone. i can only prepare as much as possible and wait for sept.

the hong kong/guangzhou trip was really good! haha. i spent 5 days in hk w my mum and younger sis. then, 2 days in guangzhou w my dad. anyway, this trip is like a mega shopping trip. heh. i spent almost all my money at Lion Rock Road, Kowloon. its one whole street that sells clothes. really cheap clothes. stuff from A&F, country road, next, hollister, gap, american eagle, DKNY etc etc. they'r like ALL on a 50-90% discount!!! muahaha. plus, THEY ARE NOT COUNTERFEITS!!! they are goods that failed the quality check by the various brands. so, that place is like a F.O.S times 100000 or sth (and of cos, its cheaper). so for those who want to visit HK, pls take some time off for that place. its really worth visit.

but before u get too excited. they dun have a wide range of sizes. and most of the time they only have a few pieces for one design. and another thing that the service wouldn be as good as shopping center boutiques. also, chances are, u will have to really dig for the clothes. haha. its quite a different shopping experience altogether. i dunno if u'll like it. but i definitely love the feeling of getting good buys. =D

alrighty, here's some pics i took during the trip. enjoy.


on the plane.


handle on train.


my little sis. how unglam. haha. but the food's really tasty. :)


this is the tea house menu. it says tt some dumpling costs HK$22.


train to hongkong disneyland. really cute handles.


little sis, mum, me, dad. on train the disneyland.


train to disneyland. nice windows.


disneyland map and entrance tix


me, sis. entrance of disneyland.


miniature house. its very very cute.


the ice cream cart.


shit. forgot e name.


sis, me. (yes, i know that i grew fat. dun remaind me. hur.)


heh. my manicured fingers. it costs me only 20 rmb. v pretty right?


stuff that i bought during the trip. its uploaded upon the request of yvonne. haha. doubt that u can see eth tho.

hmmm, this is one LONG entry (comparatively). oh. before i go off, just wanna say: I GOT A MACBOOK!!! hee. its like a dream come true.
ha ha ha. cheerios.

MacBook

hee. a MacBook asks nicely. =D
ahahaa.
yes, im getting this. soon.


its beautiful.

invigilation

i've been doing invigilation for the past week. i think this is highly suitable for ppl who like to pace and space. all u need to do is to walk and forth the rows, stare at the kids and get lost in your own thoughts till its time to collect their papers. its so darn boring.


well, actually i do like the spacing part. its how i function as a person. i dun understand those who needs zero personal space. like as if u'll cease to exist if ur on ur own [physically and metally] for just a tiny minute. for me its like the opposite. i need those times to feel alive sometimes. and yes, i do need to interaction w ppl and have company; im not an autist. but not an overdose of it. it makes me breathless. and if u think tt im weird. im not. its just who i am and what i do.


We should all learn how to move on; you'll be surprised at what can happen.

lousy behaviour

i knew she was lying. it was the 0.1 sec of hesitation and that slight quiver in her voice.

got meh? u sure not? ... maybe i was talking to myself.

that was such a bad lie. it was like she's pleading insanity to get away w her actions. [actually come to think abt it, most ppl charged w first degree murders to tt. haha.] ah well, not like its really a v big thing. just that it reflects quite a bit abt her. is it so hard to just admit your mistake and apologise graciously?

maybe if its me, i cant do it too.


sigh. i still haven get any news from ntu or nus yet. looks like i might just spend the next few years overseas.

nice.

then my mother and i are nearly alone in the courtroom. i lean forward to kiss her on the cheek. 'you did really great up there, ' i tell her, because i don't know how to say what i really want to: that the people you love can surprise you everyday. that maybe who we are isn't so much about what we do, but rather what we're capable of when we least expect it.

okay. i spent my whole labour day reading and eating away. its really quite an ideal thing to do. except when your mum ans sis are slogging away, making you feel guilty.
anyway, bit above is from the book that i finished reading today. its my sister's keeper, by jodi picoult. its a beautiful book. the emotions and thoughts going through the characters' mind are so vivid that it feels almost like im going through their dilemma. what i say here cant do justice to that book. u gotta read it and feel it for yourself. (=


and i can totally relate to the part where anna wants to be kate's sister all her life.

end of the week

sigh. im tired. both physically and metally. i really need a break. i want to have my own space and time. but when i have nth to do. im gonna complain too. i dun really wanna resort to watching tv to let those fictional stories fill up my life.

it'll only make me feel emptier than ever.


hur. maybe its just the raging hormones that's making me all sulky and stuff. maybe.


im such a mummy's girl.

july.

JULY: Fun to be with. Secretive. Difficult to fathom and to be understood. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Takes pride in oneself. Has reputation. Easily consoled. Honest. Concerned about people's feelings. Tactful. Friendly. Approachable. Emotional temperamental and unpredictable. Moody and easily hurt. Witty and sparkly. Not revengeful. Forgiving but never forgets. Dislikes nonsensical and unnecessary things. Guides others physically and mentally. Sensitive and forms impressions carefully. Caring and loving. Treats others equally. Strong sense of sympathy. Wary and sharp. Judges people through observations. Hardworking. No difficulties in studying. Loves to be alone. Always broods about the past and the old friends. Likes to be quiet. Homely person. Waits for friends. Never looks for friends. Not aggressive unless provoked. Prone to having stomach and dieting problems. Loves to be loved. Easily hurt but takes long to recover.



haha. some are so untrue.
but some r pretty accurate.
do list out the untrue ones on my tagboard. it should b pretty interesting. hahaha.

sheesh.

i've been getting quite a bit of mails from uk these days. heh heh. cos all the unis that i've applied in march thru UCAS [univerisity and college admission service] are offering me a place in their unis. so now i have 4 choices. [oh no. 5 including University of Western Australia.] they are namely University of Leeds, Bristol, Aberdeen and Liverpool John Moore University. i am like reciveing mails 3 or 4 times per week. i got newsletters from the school, accomodation guide, course prospectus and of cos, the official offer letter from UCAS. so i guess if NTU or NUS dunwan me, i'll be going off in sept to uk.

it was actually pretty exciting when i was applying for the unis. like going away to other places. and a chance to experience a whole new life, meet different ppl. learn to be independent etc etc.

hur. but when it really seems like i really gotta go. im worried. can i adapt to the new environment? wad if i cant? and wad abt my friends and family? [i'd really miss em.] if i really go there to study, it'll be a good 3 or 4 years. tt'l b quite some time. =/ sigh.



anyway, i'll be going to hong kong on the 20th june. its like a shopping-cum-visit trip.
hope that it'll be fulfilling.

just for laughs

i got quite a funny call just now from someone who 'just wanna chat w me'.

now, here's a rough dissection of the caller;

ulterior motive: to impress [by telling me that he read some self-help books, checked the meaning of a certain word and was trying to share his findings.] and to flatter.

reason [caller stated] for calling: just wanna chat. to know me better. he said that after observing me, he found that my personality dun fit the "elite sports person" personality profile. tried to get me to explain that. hello. im not even in the national youth team. could have been and the actual thing are different. and who said that im 'quiet and one who keeps alot to herself'? its just a signal from me to him. like, big and flashing "clear off".
after that, he asked if i chat w ppl on msn. sigh. who doesnt? its just a matter of who is the person in question. so i ended up telling him that i dun like to talk alot, esp to random ppl. well, i almost added 'like u' to tt sentence. but i figured tt its not so nice.

eloquence: =/

characteristics: likes to show off. thick, very. weird.

sigh. so the conclusion is that he tried too hard, and failed miserably in his mission. hur. now i must more find ways to avoid him in school. or try to get him enlightened, somehow.

its hard to be nice.

hopes and fears.

i had a weird dream ytd. the possibility of it happening in reality is less den zero. but i rmb being really contented in that dream. as if i was happy, all over again.

yet, as reality kicks in and when i rationalise eth. im back to square one. together w all my hopes and fears.

deesire

life

yay*

i finished 2 weeks worth of lesson plan. acids and bases.
anyone wants a recap on O'level chem??
lol.
i think im having an overdose of csi. been watching it every night before i sleep. kept having dreams abt being involved in csi. and i dun usually rmb my dreams. oh well, mayb one fine day i'll b wearing one of those "FORENSICS" vast tt Grissom wears while i work.
hahaha.. its a fatter den me hope.
like wad my mum said, singapore is too safe. we dun need so many CSIs ard.

wadeva. its nice daydreaming once in awhile.

skinny

okay. new skin. HEE. ripped the pic off www.deviantart.com

be still my heart

Be Still My Heart - The Postal Service

I was running late for work
So I didn't change my shirt
The evening's drinks left a lingering taste in my mouth
And when I left
You were fast asleep
Tangled in the sheets
And on the bus I could have sworn it was all a dream
And it didn't happen to me

And then I felt the scrapes
From the slippery subway grate.
Oh how you laughed
At my complete lack of grace.
But I could not recall
A more perfect fall
Cause when I looked up into your eyes
It didn't hurt at all.

And I thought, be still my heart
This could be a brand new start, with you.
And it will be clear
If I wake up and you're still here with me in the morning.

And I thought, be still my heart
This could be a brand new start, with you.
And it will be clear
If I wake up and you're still here with me in the morning.

wad i hear these days

hah? why like that? haiyo.

ooh. den wad are u planning to do?

well, u can try applying.

oh. okay.

results are not eth, its really abt e person u are.

er, are u bluffing me?

not bad. are u like celebrating somewhere?

sigh. below expectation leh.

its like u'r not up there nor down there.


sigh. i hate results to nowhere. totally.

the girl in the other room

the girl in the other room - diana krall



The girl in the other room
She knows by now
There's something in all of her fears
Now she wears it threadbare
She sits on the floor
The glass pressed tight to the wall
She hears murmurs low
The paper is peeling
Her eyes staring straight at the ceiling

Maybe they're there
Maybe it's nothing at all
As she draws lipstick smears on the wall

The girl in the other room
She powders her face
And stares hard
Into her reflection

The girl in the other room
She stifles a yawn
Adjusting the strap of her gown
She tosses her tresses
Her lover undresses
Turning the last lamp light down
What's that voice we're hearing?
We should be sleeping
Could that be someone who's weeping?

Maybe she's there
Maybe there's nothing to see
It's just a trace of what used to be

The girl in the other room
She darkens her lash
And blushes
She seems to look familiar

outside looking in

sigh. results wil b out on wed. wonder how it'l b like. =/

starting work tmr. hope it goes on well. i'm suppose to go thru their common test ppr marking scheme w em. ah well.

im like in e outside looking in mode. hurr.

im a lazy pig..

oh bother! i'm absolutely bored
and yet enjoying this newfound boredom. haha. this sounds totally contradicting. well, i guess it happens when u'r jobless, bf-less and sch-less. its like u get to wake up every morning doing wadeva u fancy. this is not e best part tho. e best part is to indulge in e laziness wo feeling guilty or part of u dreading e consequences. muahaha.

but of cos there'r always 2 sides to eth. stimes i get paranoid abt not having to do ath and worry abt not worrying abt ath. hur. this is so absolutely weird. sigh. mayb i'm just not use to being lazy.
stimes when i get too bored, i'll start imaging all e tiny neurons firing signals in my head telling me tt im so bored tt im doing all tt im doing. haa. tt sounds funny.

ah, mr thomas just told me tt e teacher i'm relieving wants to see me regarding her lessons. great! i have sth to do now..

ugh. overnight coke sucks.

just for fun

http://kevan.org/johari?name=gniygniy

just curious abt wad ppl think of me. haha.

take it back

Take It Back – Loquat

I know all you u wouldn’t see
But these neuroses go pretty deep
And the words we use
I have the nicest ones

I know what a jerk I am
And what a pain in the ass you are

I don’t want to drive u up a cliff
So before we get to that
I gotta say sorry I take it back
I’m sure u don’t wanna burn me apart and down
So before we get to that
Could you please just take it back

It looks as though you are cursed
As for being difficult turned to worse
But at times you’ll find
I’ll make it easy on you

I know what a jerk I am
And what a pain in the ass you are

I don’t want to drive u up a cliff so before
So before we get to that I gotta say sorry I take it back
I’m sure u don’t wanna burn me apart and down so before
We get to that could u please just take it back

Listen I heard what you said
You don’t have to repeat it
I'd rather that conversation got totally deleted

I don’t want to drive u up a cliff
So before we get to that I gotta say sorry I take it back
I’m sure you don’t wanna burn me apart and down so before
We get to that could you
Please just take it back

hur. finally manage to figure out e lyrics for this song. tho i bet its loaded w errors. but oh well, since i cant find this lyrics anywhere i gotta make do w this. haa. mayb i shld get their CD online or sth. heeheeeee..

my mood

sunny/overcast