i've been receiving complaints about my stagnant blog. in case you've been wondering, i'm still very much alive. its just that i've been busy mugging, or trying to mug, my ass off these days. exams sucks. no doubt about it. it's universal; from singapore to UK to wherever. i think it's a singaporean thing. cos even when there's lack of drilling here for me to study very very hard, i'm still doing so. possibly even more so. i guess that's a nice change. i dunno. haha.
its's been more than 2 months sonce i left home, or reached here so to speak. there have been quite a few emotional roller coaster rides. but i'm gradually settling in to the life here. establishing my routines, building familiarity and transcending to another level of independence. this independence is not something you can develop at home; not that you cant learn to be independent when you're in the place where you grew up. it's just a differernt.
the independence here is like a no string attached life. you are truly on your own, with no moral obligations to fulfil and people to please. here, it's more like 'me, myself and i'. you exist as a single entity, with no worries or cares for the world. everything is more or less your own time own target. you do what you like and like what you do. it's refreshing, liberating and.... sad. cos after awhile you get tired of the space and pirvacy. you begin to think that you are havng too much space that it becomes emptiness.
ah well, i guess thats life. you cant have everything. i'm not depressed or suicidal, thats just how i feel about it.
but i've made a couple of good friends here, fortunately. and im very thankful to have em ard. ((:
oooh. i'll be going to york this sat for shopping. yeah, i know i have exams. but i have my mum's permission. 'as long as you can finish whatever you need to study for, theres no reason to be cooped up at home.' my mum's words [in chinese of cos]. hahah.
okay, enough time spent on my random thoughts. time for some work to be done. =/
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