let go, so let go

i've been receiving complaints about my stagnant blog. in case you've been wondering, i'm still very much alive. its just that i've been busy mugging, or trying to mug, my ass off these days. exams sucks. no doubt about it. it's universal; from singapore to UK to wherever. i think it's a singaporean thing. cos even when there's lack of drilling here for me to study very very hard, i'm still doing so. possibly even more so. i guess that's a nice change. i dunno. haha.

its's been more than 2 months sonce i left home, or reached here so to speak. there have been quite a few emotional roller coaster rides. but i'm gradually settling in to the life here. establishing my routines, building familiarity and transcending to another level of independence. this independence is not something you can develop at home; not that you cant learn to be independent when you're in the place where you grew up. it's just a differernt.

the independence here is like a no string attached life. you are truly on your own, with no moral obligations to fulfil and people to please. here, it's more like 'me, myself and i'. you exist as a single entity, with no worries or cares for the world. everything is more or less your own time own target. you do what you like and like what you do. it's refreshing, liberating and.... sad. cos after awhile you get tired of the space and pirvacy. you begin to think that you are havng too much space that it becomes emptiness.

ah well, i guess thats life. you cant have everything. i'm not depressed or suicidal, thats just how i feel about it.

but i've made a couple of good friends here, fortunately. and im very thankful to have em ard. ((:

oooh. i'll be going to york this sat for shopping. yeah, i know i have exams. but i have my mum's permission. 'as long as you can finish whatever you need to study for, theres no reason to be cooped up at home.' my mum's words [in chinese of cos]. hahah.

okay, enough time spent on my random thoughts. time for some work to be done. =/

weekend

i should be doing some work now. i've been procrastinating since i got back from town. it seem like i just cant concentrate on my textbook. i keep wondering to spme other places in my mind. haha. i think i'm still in the post-assessment mood. bleah. i should steer myself back very soon.

went shopping with Sarah and Sherrie today. okay, what's new right? i've been going to shopping almost every saturday for the past month. i usually come back empty handed with a full stomach. but today is a different story. =D i spent a total of 57 quid on a pair of jeans from Zara and a a water proof "snowman" jacket from Gap. heeheehee.. they are so nice and value for money. the Gap jacket is on sale. it was 58 quid. but there is a reduction of 20 quid. so its about 30% off. heh. i love getting good buys. call me cheapo. i dun really care. heehee.

sigh. i should do my revision early. will upload some pics soon. my d-cam's batteries finally arrived. =D

thank you erer! you really put in quite alot of effort to pack the stuff. haha. love you! -muacks-

the nearness of you

The Nearness of You - Norah Jones

Its not the pale moon that excites me
That thrills and delights me,
Oh no
Its just the nearness of you

It isnt your sweet conversation
That brings this sensation,
Oh no
Its just the nearness of you

When youre in my arms
And I feel you so close to me
All my wildest dreams
Came true

I need no soft lights to enchant me
If youll only grant me
The right
To hold you ever so tight
And to feel in the night
The nearness of you.

halloween

halloween was damn fun! i went clubbing with the Singsoc people at Oceana. this time its actually enjoyable, not awkward.

basically, we just drank, danced and bitch about ugly/sluttish people. it was really enjoyable. esp when we bitch. =X i even told my mum that i went clubbing. hah. and she cldn even recognise me on the picture! i dressed up as a "vampire" but i dun think i look like one. cos im too cute. haha. no la. its cos i didnt have blood/white powder. and im not sure if i really want over do it, resulting the not quite like vampire look.


clement, yun jing, me, sarah and zuthur


sarah, me, edna and asha


clockwise: zuthur, sarah, yun jing, asha and yours truly. on the dance floor.

(:

ooh. and i got a new phone (and number)! heh. its the Samsung D900, red version. hee. its so gorgeous and slim! =D

YAY! i finally got a phone!!