blessed.

i think i'm quite an eccentric person.

sometimes, i just lie on my bed at night imagining how billions of cells in my body functioning as a whole unit, complementing each other in synchrony. like how millions of minute neurons firing electrical signals to each other to inhibit or excite, creating resopnses in my muscles or just a random thought like this. it's amazing how the seemingly "dead" processes, such as diffusion of neurotransmitter down a concentration gradient across the synaptic cleft, come together to make you and i unique individuals. it's simply too beautiful for me to put down in words.
[okay, i think i got all the key words to "Explain how the neurotransimitter reaches the post synaptic membrane from the pre synaptic membrane. 2m" But thats not the point.]

on the other hand, it is fragile too.

when any one of the processes ceases to work properly, no matter how "trival" it seems, the result may be detrimental. if you look at cancer, the underlying principle is simple - the continuous, uncontrolled division of cells. see how it devastates people's lives and baffles the researchers finding a cure. as much as we sometimes don't want to admit, we just can't beat nature. period.

so be thankful that you are alive and kicking. stop lamenting about life.

we take too many things for granted, only to realise it when its too late.